Some Hope
By Jenelle Rose 12/20/98
All rights reserved. Copyright © Jenelle Rose 1998-2003
Now I’m not saying I want to die
But when I’m gone they’ll wonder why.
The kids you see, they don’t know;
Indeed I can’t let it show.
It’s our little secret, my wife’s and I
I like to dress in her own eye.
I like to dress as a woman you see,
It’s the way it is and always will be.
So when I die, I hope you will bury me,
Dressed as I, feel I should be.
For when the future comes to see,
I'm dressed as a woman it will be common.
Everyone will know, we all can
Dress as a woman or dress as a man.
We’re all the same, you and me
The future will understand that to be.
So bury me down in finery,
Just as I feel, inside of me.
They’ll all come to take a look;
Like it was in some old book.
The way it is, today I’m shamed;
Tomorrow though, it won’t be the same!
A Song Of Sorrow, A Heart In Pain
By Jenelle Rose
11/11/98
All rights reserved. Copyright Jenelle Rose 2003
Isn't it funny, when love takes a turn;
Take a chance and you may get burned.
I had a choice, I made it last night;
And now I’m living today in fright.
Afraid of what tomorrow may hold,
I told my wife when I felt quite bold.
I told her how I had been all along;
Now I’m paying, so I’m writing this song.
I told my SO I was a CD.
Now she thinks-"Oh no, this can’t be!"
So I look around for an escape,
But all the while it was always my fate.
What brought me joy, now brings me pain;
Now I’m all alone, it’s all inside.
The pain I feel makes me cry
I break down and I wonder why.
I knew joy, I now know pain;
I lift my head but fall again.
Life is funny how it can go,
It’s brought me here, a very long road.
This songs’ not over of this, I’m sure;
They’ll be more to tell and endure.
I cry in sorrow, my heart’s in pain.
It’s just a song to get further along.
Leaving My Blues
By Jenelle Rose
1/17/99
My
wife does not have the time for me,
I
try as hard as it may be
To
get through another day,
Without
wasting my life away!
I’m
in despair,
She
doesn’t care.
Or
so it seems
I’m
falling apart at the seams.
Can
it get any better?
Or
will it only get worse?
With
pain in my heart,
I’m
looking to restart.
The
home we have, all well and good
There’s
a big part, she’s not understood.
With
family, it starts with two
She’s
forgot that, now I’m blue
Very
little time, we spend alone,
And
when we do, she’s like a stone.
Love
is hard, we all know.
It
takes a lot to make it grow.
I
hope and pray that she will see
And
understand what it means to be;
To
have love, it takes two,
Not
just one, if she only knew.
If
she sees, there’s still time,
But
if she don’t, I’ll take mine.
Move
away to some other place
And
leave her, without a trace!
Jenelle Rose
Copyright © 2003 [Jenelle Rose]. All rights reserved.
2/1/2003