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Emails 2005:

5/23: Some of the following emails will be moved to the Dear Jenelle section soon.

--- Jenelle Rose <jenelle@jenellerose.com> wrote:

 > Just wanted to thank you for thinking my site was cool enough to link to.  Was checking on the membership of the community site, Beautiful Wonderful Women I have and saw your profile links to my TG site. Hope you and yours have a wonderful, happy holiday season and you my dear, a very good year!

Jenelle 

From: Sunbeam
Sent: Friday, January 07, 2005 3:51 PM

To: Jenelle Rose
Subject: Re: thank you sweetie!

 

Dear Jenelle

Thank you very much for your message. I wish you the best in the new year.

That's true, I love your site. I've been following your evolution and am very impressed, specially with the most recent pictures. You look a very natural girl. 

For me, visiting your site (and other similar) is a kind of therapy mixed with fantasy. Let me explain. Therapy, because I see that I am not the only "normal" one that loves to cross-dress. Fantasy, because being far from "passable", I don't think I will ever get out the closet, so to say, I can just dream being in "your shoes" or in other TGirl shoes...

What are you personal plans for short and mid term?

(...so I could plan to dream...)

 Just one question about Beautiful Wonderful Women: Why don't you allow us to see the members list?

Well, take care of your self and be happy.

Kisses

Samantha

 

Samantha,

Hi hon.

Sorry for such a long delay in answering your letter. Yours is not the only one. As for my short and long range goals and such, my life is an open book and I have put it all out there for all to see.

I just try to live as best I can, be a good person, try to help whenever and wherever possible, stay with doing the websites I have and so on. I am beginning to move away from doing makeup for film in my area as I have gone as far as I can in the field for film here and it is not really what I want doing film makeup as a career. I am looking to work for a company for steady income and reach out to all those who need support.

Just trying to have a life that is worth living and be the best I can be.

As for the Member's list, it holds down the spam you would get if I were to let that information out.
Thank you for your letter.

Jenelle Rose 


From: SCOTT
Sent: Sunday, January 09, 2005 3:11 AM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: who is she????

I was surfing and found your website by some turn of event or curosity but i saw the pic of the female in the yellow tank top and jeans at the bottom of the transsexual pic gallery page 2 and wondering who she is. I wouldnt care if she is a transexual, since i have dated a few in the past despite some of the diapproval of some when they found out. well if you can help reply back

I am sorry; I cannot help you at this time. I will see if there is a way I can track that information down for you. I remember her but cannot remember where the pic came from.  Please write back if you have not heard from me in a reasonable time. Aren’t they all so lovely?!

Thank you for visiting the site!

Jenelle

From: SCOTT
Sent: Wednesday, January 12, 2005 8:10 PM
To: Jenelle Rose
Subject: thank you
 

 yes they are all very beutiful. Thank you for replying. I didint know if you knew who she was but figured i would ask.

5/23 Still no luck in finding anything about her who actually appears on two pages, at least.

Jenelle Rose


From: Carlos
Sent: Thursday, January 13, 2005 10:19 AM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: HI! FROM BRAZIL

Alo!!

My name is Carlos.  41 y.o. - advocate. I live in São Paulo - Brazil.

Excuse-me for my english.

You is a beatifull lady.

I am crazy for you.

Y love you.

1.000.000.000.000.000.000..... KISSES.

CARLOS

 

Thank you Carlos,

Your English is fine! Glad to have you visit!

Jenelle Rose 


From: Pamila
Sent: Friday, January 14, 2005 3:56 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: pictures
 

Hi there

those were some wondeful pics on that site

sincerely 

keith

Thanks Keith! 

Jenelle Rose  


From: Joann
Sent: Sunday, January 16, 2005 9:01 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: Hello

Hello Jenelle,
I saw your site and have to say its beautiful. I was wondering where are you from. I'm a TG from NNJ and would love to meet GG like you did on your photo page.

Joanne

Hi Joanne,

Thank you very much. What photo exactly, as there are several GG’s throughout the web site or what page?

I am currently in Ohio but have lived in New York, Washington DC and California among others. I have a personals section that you may want to try, otherwise try mainstream personals as a woman looking for a woman or those that feature an area for either GG’s or TG’s looking to meet would help you. I have done it all, including my favorite-just go about your life, have a good time and when you are NOT looking, she will find YOU. 

This site gets a lot of GG’s; always has. I had a site specifically for GG’s at one time but closed it years ago to focus on this site and a few others I maintain for other subject matter.

I will post some sites that allow interaction between the two genders shortly. Stay tuned!

Thanks for writing,

Good luck!

 Jenelle Rose   


From: Bryan
Sent: Friday, January 21, 2005 11:24 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: I love your site

Jenelle,

I am a heterosexual who enjoys high drag.  I am not convincing enough to go out in public, but I look pretty damn good on film and video.  Despite my age, which I won’t reveal, I look about 35-40 in drag.  I am talking showgirl type stuff.  I use a suction pump to enlarge my lips and tape to pull back my face.  I also use big hair, prosthetic breasts, boots, etc..  I find doing this very exciting. 

I think you look great!  Good for you for doing what feels right.  I am going to do some mild hormone therapy soon, more for the excitement of doing it than the results I expect - there is no way I can go all the way to being a female as my shoulders are too big, my head too, and I have short legs.  I would not make for a very convincing woman except in the show-girl slut manner I have developed at a distance of twenty feet.  But you do what you can that feels good.  My skill at makeup is quite good – having been a photographer I understand shading.  I use taping, prosthetics and surgical adhesive to achieve a pretty remarkable look. 

I thought your article on makeup, etc. was great.  You are a heroine.  Send me back a note if you like.  OK if you don’t.  I’m doing myself up right now, so I have to go.  Best thoughts.


Thanks for a lovely note! I have a few comments I would like to make. I don’t think it is impossible for anyone to be a woman; it is all a state of mind and it’s about confidence as much as anything. Some women have some of the same features you have. 

Sounds like you could write an article about how to do stage makeup and with your expertise in shading; I think it would be quite interesting. Care to write one for the Jenellerose web site? I would be most appreciative and am sure many would benefit from it. There is a segment that would be interested and I have always wondered, as in a curiosity, how the drag queen look was done anyway. There could be tips you know we all could use!

Jenelle Rose  


From: Kitty Foxx
Sent: Saturday, January 22, 2005 2:43 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: hi

i just looked at your site, it was absolutely wonderful, keep up the good work,

hugs and kisses,

kitty.

Thanks Kitty. Will do. It is fun!

 Jenelle Rose  


From: koos
Sent: Saturday, January 22, 2005 2:33 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject:

hi jenelle, i have seen your webpage and i like it very much, i think you are a very beautiful woman and i envy your courage to become of what you are today, i wish i had only half of your courage cause i share the same feeling, but i already know that i can never do cause the people around me will never except me the way i would like to be,  but your webpage helped me a lot already cause nobody can take a look inside your dreams right, thanks a lot,   koos

Thanks so much Koos, that says a lot. 

Jenelle Rose  


From: nanosio
Sent: Wednesday, February 09, 2005 4:07 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: disgusting

This sight is disgusting! It will never be excepting in society. I live with one and it's sick and mental.

Thank you for writing. I am all for diversity! It’s what makes the world interesting.

Many people living there own lives and in their own way. 

Please don’t criticize what you know nothing about. It is not a mental thing at all and you can learn much by perusing the Jenellerose web site. I hope you do so with an open mind and you will discover many interesting things that could have rewards for you too besides a deeper understanding of what it means to be Transgendered. .

Take care. Live long and prosper,

Jenelle Rose  


From: Dan
Sent: Wednesday, February 02, 2005 9:45 AM
To: Jenelle Rose
Subject: Tuesday am...

OK It's been a while, how are you doing these days? How is the soreness? Things healing the way they should?

Write when you get the chance, I'm still here.

Dan.

 

Dan,

Thank you Dan for staying with me during some very trying times. You have always been there when I needed a friend and very much appreciate it!

Jenelle Rose  


From: CDmale
Sent: Saturday, February 19, 2005 7:33 AM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: register

Jenelle,

You are one fine looking woman.

I came across your web site surfing the web and book marked it so that I can return.

Being from Northern Kentucky and living just south of Louisville, Kentucky I can say I admire you for going out dressed as the woman you felt that you are and finding employment as a woman.

I wish I could find the encouragement to do it, when ever I am home I try to spend all of my time in something feminine or at least keep nail polish on my toenails.

Sharon

Thanks Sharon!

LOL, sounds me in the old days! Now I dress because I AM a woman full time! It’s funny b/c now I wear pants more often, less make up and hardly color my hand nails. That is not to say I do not paint my toes (I do) and I am obsessive about my fingernails in that they look very good natural without color, still love to wear dresses or a skirt when possible but pants are usually more practical and HAVE to wear mascara and light make up around my eyes and lips no matter where I go!

I am mostly an entrepreneur and find work everywhere doing many different types of things. Still not working for a company on a permanent basis but would like to for the security.

You have to come to Cincinnati sometime, perhaps we can meet and hang out as girls. Your comfort level or boldness will increase with time!

Jenelle Rose  


From: Wantina
Sent: Tuesday, February 22, 2005 4:37 PM
To: Jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: HOUR GLASS FIGURE ----ASAP
 

Hey Jenelle, 

I am a female who is in search of what I can take (hormones) to develop the classic hour glass figure. I know that transsexual males have the insight on it already. I need to get into the loop ASAP. Please let me know what doctors can help me, what treatments are out there for women, and if a basic estrogen pill is sufficient. Give me any information that you have. Please feel free to share the question with whoever can assist me.    

Thanks.

Hi,

At the time of your letters’ arrival in my mailbox, I was researching your question for myself and still am, as I would love to have an hourglass figure. I too, have thought about writing transsexuals for the answer because I see pictures of them with an amazing shape!

I believe that is one of the most sought after body changes I am after at this time. I had checked into several methods for myself such as asking my plastic surgery doctors about removing anywhere from one to three ribs, which I decided against, had Liposuction done and had the thought of moving some of that fat to my hips area (bumpy and temporary), have also exercised and dieted.

To this point nothing worked. While the hormones have drastically changed my body to being much more feminine in nature such as full B cup breasts, the navel in relation to my waist and a definite hint of an hourglass, it is no where near the ideal of a .7 to .8 waist to hip ratio that is considered most attractive.

I still exercise to lose calories and build muscle which burns more calories and also raises metabolism. I do whatever is in my control. Some of the things mentioned above will get me there eventually but I do not know at this time what you or I could do to reach our goal any more quickly. Perhaps a hip implant of the sort they used for my cheeks would do the trick, if there is such a thing and I would think there is. It would be a hard plastic shaved and contoured insert in looks and give that extra boost we so seek! I will keep investigating and keep you abreast of my findings!

As for hormones, you didn't mention your age or to many specifics about yourself. Many women, get on a HRT program both during after menopause to help with things like hot flashes. A .5 mg Vivelle DOt patch would be wjhat they would use and rotate twice/week. Additional hormones for anyone is a big risk and you should get with a family doctor or OB-GYN for their advice and supervision.

At this time, I know of no quick fixes for either of us but I will not give up trying to find something that works! I know some TS's get Silicone injections but I believe that this is very dangerous and not recommended and you should not sacrifice your life and health on doing such things.

I hope you stay in touch with me and the web site, Jenellerose.com. Perhaps we will find the answer together or something that works that we can share. I am on a quest and have this as a very high goal. I have not been on hormones long enough for all of the changes to take place that are going to thru fat redistribution to my hips, butt and so on.

I have to be as thin as possible, as a genetic male with narrow hips to achieve the goal. You certainly should have an edge on me. Ironically, females with wide hips would rather not have them and wide hips is a sign of fertility, hence adding to women's attractiveness to males!

Stay in touch! And good luck to you. 

Jenelle Rose  


From: SByrd
Sent: Friday, February 25, 2005 10:41 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: your very attractive..
 

LOL I'd actually screw you.....great tutorial on make up..though congrates...

Thanks hon. I am always going to be adding more as it is simple in many aspects, there are many variations, looks, styles and so much you can do and is almost boundless. As for the other comment, I take that as a compliment as I am sure you meant it to be. Means I am on track and doing the right things.

 Jenelle Rose  


From: Victor
Sent: Friday, February 25, 2005 10:59 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: you
 

you so hot

Thank you. Thanks for writing! 

Jenelle Rose  


From: Otbdan72
Sent: Monday, February 28, 2005 1:23 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: julie a crossdresser

i love to dress like a woman right now i'm wearing ladys pantys and a bra . will you help me be a full time woman

Well you came to the right place. Look around the Jenellerose web site and you will find everything you need. I started by wearing just a bra and panties too and look where I am 8 years later, lol !

Thanks for writing!

Jenelle Rose   


From: nilu manisha
Sent: Monday, March 07, 2005 11:58 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: crossdressing

Hai!

I saw your photos in your website.You're very Beautifull  girl.I love your photos verymuch.I'm also like to be a woman.Please if you  like Please reply me.

Nilu

Hi Nilu,

Thank you very much for your writing and kind comments. I try to reply to everyone but sometimes I am a bit of a lager. Please excuse my tardiness in making a reply. As for becoming a woman, I am sure you will find most anything you need to know from my web site and the links that take you to others perhaps with more detail in areas of your interest. I try to provide everything for you that you might need right here. Take a look around the web site and see if it does not answer most of your questions. Let me know where it is lacking or any ideas you have.

Thank you, 

Jenelle Rose  

From: nilu manisha
Sent: Friday, May 27, 2005 1:03 AM
To: Jenelle Rose
Subject: RE: crossdressing

Hai Rose,

    I saw your pictures again .you seem to be a real woman.I also like to be a girl like you.As a first step I buy the panties.Now i have 10 panties.TRherefore please can you tell me about your panty experience.I think I can take any help from your e-mail

Loving ,GIRL   Nilu
 

Again thank you for the compliments Nilu. I take your comment/question seriously as that is what this web site is all about, finding answers to what makes us the way we are and providing guidance, insight and hope along the way. We are all quite different when it comes to why we do what we do.

Personally, my only rush when I first donned a pair of panties, the first article of feminine clothing I ever tried on,  didn't give me such a sexual charge as much as a feeling of being closer to my fem spirit. That is not to say there wasn't an erotic feeling, just that it was overwhelmed by the fact that I was wearing something feminine and a light bulb went on inside my being that this was meant to be. I have traveled far from that day and can only hope you find your way, the way which works for you.

As advice, stay away from certain types of women's panties as being impractical, too narrow or uncomfortable for us. Examples: If you wear the latest lacy boy-short types, you fall out and will be very uncomfortable, even if you love the look. Anything that is open weave such as lace or even nylons are not comfortable as all day wear. Then again, if you are just wearing these things as erotica and the time spent in them is short and you are not looking for practicality, go it! Just wait for sales and shop around. What costs $10 to $20 or more a pair at one place can be found for less than $3.00 probably elsewhere.
 

Jenelle Rose  


From: Grace Diane
Sent: Monday, March 07, 2005 2:33 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: Wonderful site

Dear Jenelle,

Hi! Its so wonderful to come across you and your terrific website. You have certainly become a lovely

woman. Your life story is very touching. The site is entertaining and at the same time informative. 

I am Diane Grace from Los Angeles, and like you I am a crossdresser who just loves women and the beauty they possess and represent. A man simply has no appeal for me.

 

I stand 5'5" and weight 122 lbs. My measurements are 34B-27-35. I am of Asian origin and so I am lucky to

have a very small frame. Your story as a CD that loves the beauty of women is an inspiration for me and I would certainly like to hear more from you. What you have done to live out your dream is quite a feat.

 

I have recently started on moderate doses of Estradiol (1 mg/day for now). If you have the time to spare, I

would be appreciative of your observations and advice on the effects of the different dosages of these

hormones. I do not wish to completely cease all my male functions.  

I hope you like my photo.

Take care. 

Hugs,

Diane

Diane,

Thank you for the very nice comments and compliments. I like letters like yours, lol.

Your picture shows a very beautiful woman and I certainly envy your size(s) and the fact that you live in California where it is sunny and warm most of the year and being around Hollywood and beaches; I would like to be in your shoes!

I think I answer this question frequently so I need to write an article using this that I am about to tell you and put it up in the Transsexual Advice section of the Jenellerose web site.

For now, on a personal note I take .1 mg of Estrodiol through the application of two Vivelle Dot patches twice a week rotated on my abdomen. This is a very efficient means to get the hormones into the system with minimal side effects and it travels thru the liver only once rather than twice as it does for the other methods. In my case, starting out with just one patch to get my body used to he estrogen and to watch for any ill effects and know that I had doctor supervision, as anyone should along with blood tests taken to get a base and since as a precaution, my breasts grew to an A cup in about 3 months or so.

Doubling the dosage at that point by using two patches at a time, twice a week, I went to a B cup in the next three months and have remained there ever since, even after taking 100 mg of Spironolactone for the last 11 months which has just doubled to 200 mg this past week.

Understand I was a nymphomaniac of sorts, had a few intimate relationships just prior since my divorce two years ago and never had a problem before I started taking hormones. I thought about sex most all of the time and sometimes masturbated several times an evening into the wee hours of the morning. I couldn't get enough. Even with women I would go all night!

Never was the time that I had trouble getting an erection.

That changed and the ability to have penetrative intercourse with a woman was harder after those first several months and proceeded to get harder ever. At about 16 months I was also dealing with the effects of many surgeries. I could masturbate and reach climax, diminishing intensity over the long haul and with no ejaculation, which I did not mind, but could not get a hard on.

Six months later, I received a prescription to Viagra and once again could have sex on a normal, regular basis with full penetration. I do not receive the intense orgasms of before and have to sometimes be turned on to be interested in having sex, even though the desire is still there, it is mostly out of habit, I believe.

A lot of this is in the mind and it is not the Spiro that makes you go limp, it is the Estrogen. You cannot have it both ways when taking hormones. With the doubling of the Spiro, I hope to get back on track and my breasts will continue to grow. The doctor thinks it is possible I could reach a C cup even though the normal for males is an A. Spiro affects primarily surface tissue and that includes body hair, oil on the face and the breast growth among other things of that nature.

Hope this helps. Good luck and continue to write!

Jenelle Rose 

From: Grace Diane
Sent: Monday, May 23, 2005 1:09 PM
To: Jenelle Rose
Subject: RE: Wonderful site 

Dear Jenelle,

 

Hi. Thank you for your response and advice. I am glad that you like my photo. I have another one

here.

 

You can also see another photo in the Snapshot contest

(May 2005) in - http://www.castlesupplys.com

 

I also have a small webpage that I made some time ago.

Its does need to be updated.

 

http://www.geocities.com/grace_diane2001/Diane_Grace.html

 

I have been taking 1 mg of Estrofem every day for about 2 months now.  I take it sublingually in order

to avoid the liver. I have not yet taken Spiro although I have acquired them already. I will probably

start on  a low dosage of 25 mg a day and observe the effects and possibly increase to 50 mg a day.

 

The estradiol dosage is actually quite low because the recommended dosage of Estrofem for TGs is 4 mg per

day. But I am not rushing all these and and observing how the hormones affect me. Perhaps adding Spiro will help

 

Like you, I had so much libido before. These days, it has slightly decreased. I estimate roughly at about

20-25%. My hormone dosage is still low and so the effect is not too pronounced.

 

You mentioned that it is not really the Spiro but the estradiol that makes one go limp. That is curious

because I had the belief all along that it was mainly Spiro that caused that.

 

I am aware of course a high level of hormones will certainly cause that result eventually.

 

Does your special personality ever pose a problem with the genetic women you meet including those that you

have have relationships  with these days? I would not be surprised if most women are uncomfortable by

cosnidering themselves as some kind of lesbian.

 

Take care and I wish all happines for you.

 

Hugs,

Diane

 

You're welcome. You are a pretty lady hon.

I did get it wrong about my Estrodiol dosage. I take two .1 mg Vivelle Dot patches at a time and rotate those twice/week. It is the strongest they make but is very efficient and equal to much higher dosages of Estrogen taken by other means.

I had thought it was the Spiro that made me go limp as do other ladies sat a TS meeting I go to but my doctor just this week, the best in the business and treats about 99% of us, said it is the Estrogen indeed.

At this same TS meeting, one girl took 50 mg of Spiro as her dosage before her SRS almost a year ago. I started on 100 mg and it has just been increased to 200 mg this week. Most take 9n the range of 100-300 mg. Spiro retains Potassium and water so therefore you should not eat Bananas .

I will add your link to my favorites page of links and your pictures with your letter in the Emails section of the Jenellerose web site.

 

As for women, I had interest in any woman before but everyone assumes that you are gay and/or going to have reassignment surgery.  No matter, all women think of you as a woman, at least to your face and yes, that would make them a lesbian if there was interest in a relationship.

 

I didn't understand the ramifications of this until very recently. I had been on personals advertising myself as a male looking for a female and had posted at the beginning both male and female versions of myself and then changed that to female only. I got very little interest and those who wrote said good luck, I wasn't their type or they admired my courage. Those most interested were in another city far away.

 

Once I changed my listing to one of woman for woman, women were beating down the door! I had plenty of interest and in fact have been with a lesbian now these last 6 months. She had never been with a man before, is not at all attracted to men and thinks of me as 90% woman. I get ma'amed all the time wherever I go, even on the phone and think more and more of myself, as a woman.

I think personally you should follow the Dr. Benjamin Standards of Care or at the very least get doctor supervision for the hormones and certainly blood tests.

Best wishes, 

Jenelle Rose

 

From: Grace Diane

Sent: Tuesday, May 31, 2005 8:45 PM

To: Jenelle Rose

Subject: RE: Wonderful site

 

Jenelle, 

Hi again. Thank you for your compliment.  

Here is another photo of me dressed in a pink suit.

 

I agree that it is mainly the Estrogen that makes one go limp but no doubt Spiro contributes to that too. I will  start on 25 mg of Spiro and observe the results. 

I have read of accounts of TGs who "cycle" their hormones. They take hormones until they attain the desired results and stop when they start to go limp. Then they start taking it again. This may be quite tricky to do.  

The recommended dosage for TGs is 4 mg of Estrofem a day. (I only take 1.0 mg/day).  I don't know how that compares to your dosage of 0.1 mg Vivelle Dot but I think I may have read somewhere that this is the recommended HRT dosage for TGs. I am glad that you found a woman who was accepting of your special quality.

Take care.

Hugs,

Diane

Diane,

I had always thought and was told by other TS's that Spiro or Anti-Androgens make you impotent; makes sense. At my last doctor's visit with the renowned Endocrinologist in this region, I was informed otherwise to that very question.

I have been told by others that hormones affected their libido within 3 months of starting but in my own case, I was on Estrogen for 18 months and combined that with Spiro for the next 8 months or more at 100mg/day before I was left with what most men get just from growing older. I am now on 200mg and like the course I am on very much. Spiro effects the secondary glands-hair, oil, etc.

This same doctor told me when I first started seeing him and taking hormones as I asked for a balanced treatment that it was an either/or, you can't have both. I told him then I preferred to be a woman if given the choice but always maintained I was not interested in surgery as I liked being inside the vagina.  We maintain that balance to this day though my hormonal balance is, I am sure, very one sided on the female as my last blood test, August, 2004 showed low Testosterone, even then.

I don't believe you can cycle through hormones. At 6 months the changes are irreversible and you shouldn't even start unless you are sure that you are on the right path for you and not taking them b/c of peer pressure, running away from something or any other reason than to be a woman full-time. There are some very serious consequences. 

As to comparing hormones, given the different ways we take them, I don't think you can compare dosages. Transdermal patches are the most efficient means of getting female hormones into the system and a whole lot safer. It takes far less while making great changes to the body and in different ways than other forms such as shots or pills. Some of the ways and types of hormones TS's use make for some odd looking breasts-mounds on mounds that they may end up getting surgery to correct. Everybody responds differently. 

I don't know where you got your information from on what formula TG's use regarding dosages. Everyone is different and there are many variables. I know of TGs's through their own experience, talk about or recommend certain numbers/dosages but you really should get a doctor's supervision and medical care.

Taking hormones can be very dangerous. You can suffer stroke, kidney failure, and other major ill-effects.  

Please follow the Dr Benjamin "Standards of Care". You are only hurting yourself and a chance at a successful transition if you do not.

Thanks for writing, 

Jenelle Rose


From: Danielle La Belle
Sent: Sunday, March 13, 2005 2:36 PM
To: Jenelle Rose
Subject: A Danielle Marie La Belle re-do for you

Hi Jenelle:

I am the editor for the search engine http://www.dmoz.org in the "Transgendered" section of this Nationally recognized public search engine. Phew!

I was reviewing sites and of course I have yours listed as a "cool site" with us.  I am permitted each year to review and reassign the "cool site" award to someone in the present listings under the particular sub-category.  Your site continues to be worthy of this recognition!

BTW, I think of myself as a rather amateur photographer/digital artist using Adobe Photoshop 6.0 and their sister program Adobe PhotodeluxeHome. 

To make this short, I hijacked your photo so that I could do something special for you.  All rights remain yours of course.  I do not misuse anyone's copyrighted photos ever.  I just like to do a little work on them and return the copy to them for their observations and comments. 

Your photo and the work that you have done is nothing short of fantastic girlfriend!  I am 56 so it is pretty much past my time for such things, but you, WOW, what an incredible look you have.  I know of your history and the difficulties that you have endured via you writing to me on occasion and my reading of your web pages.

So, here is a little something to make your day.  My class of 18 students in gender studies and general psychology had five (5) photos on  a paste board to choose from.  The assignment was to find the real women on the board (FAB)"Female at birth."  All 18 picked out your photo as {FAB}!!!!!!!  100% confidence factor.  No one is told different.  There is no grade or right or wrong.  I think that you should be extremely proud of yourself, I know that I am!

I trust that you will find my work flattering and accept it for the very reason that I enjoy doing this type of work for others.

Photo 1 - adjusted. 

Photo 2 - adjusted and painted... 

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 W O W! No, DBL WOW!

This photo made me go looking for my Wal-Mart scalpel set.  A little trim here and there, nah, not going to ever happen for me!

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Watercolor style composition.

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 Hugs

Danielle Marie

Danielle,

Hi sweetie; always a pleasure to have your letters arrive in my mail box!

Appreciative of your efforts, enthusiasm and all that you to do for the Jenellerose web site, it deserves recognition for it’s usefulness and continued help to others. I find it interesting how it done so in ways I never would have suspected and on so many levels.

About the picture you offer with retouching, I am not a fan of any one retouching their photos in a web site such as mine, feeling it is better to give the audience the way I truly look and allow for others to follow my progress and how it may help them in their quest on their own journey into womanhood.

Having said that, I am a bit concerned that you have taken one of my photos, and if I am to understand correctly, had others see such manipulations of my likeness. No matter how well intentioned you think it was, I would prefer manipulations of this sort just for your own eyes only, while at the same time thank you for being honest, open and forthright with me about it. I am never sure how my pictures get used throughout the world.

I have heard from others who have done similar experiments with people they work with or in other situations. They take a photo and hang it on a wall in a well trafficked area and ask if I am a real woman or what they think of my legs, etc. with the same results!  I am truly amazed.

You didn’t mention what grade your students were in or give an idea of their age. That would be nice to know. I get recognized wherever I go, not just from this web site but I am high profile here in my area and many think or believe I am a real woman, albeit a tall one, all the time! 

Of course most cross dressers or even TS’s trying to have a normal women’s life would not like to have such recognition, I do not mind it at all. I know I am helping many, people including SO’s, and everyone in the TG community which is just like I want it and that makes it all worthwhile.

Thank you for your continued support. Good luck to you and in everything you do.

 Jenelle Rose  

From: Danielle La Belle
Sent: Monday, May 23, 2005 4:35 PM
To: Jenelle Rose
Subject: Re: Your recent Email

Hi Jenelle: 

It was nice to hear from you as always. Let me answer a question or two from the your last post.

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The students in this particular "Gender Studies" class ranged from 18 - 55.  The class, a "continuing education" class designed to provide social interaction with the community and to further one's personal desire to become better informed about  gender diversity.  No college credit is attached to such a formulae so, there really are no strict tests Performa or grade offered. 

This class is offered each semester in the "continuing education" section of the Central Florida University community outreach programs.  Often I will post on a class board several photos of different people with only typical non-TG people.  That is, they represent the general majority as we know it.  Other times, for that class, I will mix things up to see if anyone can detect a change.  The photos are removed after the class and never used again in that order.  None are left lying about etc.  All go home with me.....

Frankly, I was so absolutely amazed at your transition that I could not resist offering the changes as it is an "art" form that I truly enjoy engaging in.  I take things one step further by applying "Geometrics" and "Biometrics" science, an up and coming scientific process begun in the Law Enforcement community to help identify victims that had since deteriorated beyond physical recognition.  Often highlighted on television shows involving law enforcement oriented programs such as "Law and Order" and "CSI."  Their software is in the $100,000 and up range loaned to them for the television show of course.  I on the other hand, use Adobe Photoshop ($700.00) and Adobe PS sister "Photodeluxe ($69.00).  Couple them with my own "math" program to help define characteristics of the male/female form in different races, apply the results and tada, your photo comes out altered.  Not just altered Jenelle but adjusted to scientifically recognized attributes.  That is what amazed me!  How well you fit into the formulae. 

So forgive my enthusiasm, I work with different individuals that have me provide for "art" sake, an altered photo, turned into graphic art.  For me this is more than just a hobby.  I see the "what if" etc of our physical form.  Add or remove light, change shadow, and our physical representation transforms.  You are in a space suit.  You live on planet earth for the time being.  Without your space suit we could not see you etc.  That is all you body is needed for.  Self identification.  A spirit having a physical experience for about 100 years.  After that, any one's guess I suppose.  Infinity is a very long time compared to just 100 years.  I trust that I am not talking in circles on this. 

TG people question their motive for the mirrors and the photos.  Social scientists have known for 75 years or more that people have a need to identify with themselves.  TG or otherwise.  It is a natural attribute of the physical human.  My grand-daughter, age 9, likes to dance in front of a mirror.  My grand-son, age 6, likes to beat up his teddy bear in front of the same mirror to see how he looks.  He currently identifies with "Walker - Texas Ranger," and likes to kick anything that moves, a typical 6 year old boy.

Never the less, the full length mirror plays an important role in their lives as it does in ours.  People you see when walking past them in the mall etc, reflect on our humanity and so we are all people watchers at some level.  We make small mental snapshots of everyone and make a quick comparison to what they are wearing, how they look etc.  This is perhaps a bad comparison but dogs sniff other dogs and cats sniff other cats etc, for similar reasons at their level.  To determine mostly a friendly nature or not.  We too, determine this by peoples movements, their posture etc.

I am not complicated really.  I just pay attention to people paying attention to other people. Ha ha LOL.  My interest extends into how we function not just as a culture but, as humans on a basic level.  Always something new to observe and learn.  100 years is really a very short time indeed!

Hugs

Dr. Danielle Marie LaBelle, Ph.D.

Danielle,

Thanks for filling me in on the students ages though you completely missed my point as to the use of my photos.

I have no problem whatever as to who knows about me as your letter seems to suggest. I am certainly not in any kind of stealth mode. I was saying rather that I did not want people seeing my pictures in anyway other than what is really there, other than for your own personal usage. My pictures are copyrighted by me and you are or very close to, overstepping my permission in their use.

Your letter is quite long and provides much more detail than anyone needs to know. I have the same image tools and a lot more and I am a high end graphics artist professional, not an amateur but prefer to let reality speak for itself. I may at some point do some airbrushed versions of my images but they will be labeled as such and be posted to the site as so. I often wonder what I would look like “perfected" as they do for models and celebrities on the covers of national magazines.

Regardless if the "mathematics" you used, bottom line, I prefer the originals and most certainly retain control. Like a professional musician covering a song, if you can’t do it better, don’t do it all.

I am not trying to offend you in any way, nor am I offended. I am honored and very pleased you like.. I have a great deal of respect for you and some of this you will read and taken differently by you than my intent, own voice or meaning. I am simply stating a position and my preferences in hopes that you understand where I was coming from in my original reply.

Thank you!

Jenelle Rose  

From: Danielle La Belle
Sent: Tuesday, May 24, 2005 12:16 PM
To: Jenelle Rose
Subject: Okay

Hi Jenelle:

Thank you.  I understand your desire to be "just you."  Email leaves out the eyes, the posture, the other cues that we all use to communicate various feelings.  Thank you.

 

For what it is worth, I recently was at a web site that has protected the photos from use through "Windows" controls if you should decide that you want to reduce the likelihood of your photos being misused.  I do not know how they applied this area of "Windows" but, it prevents the use of the copy command and several others.  I have deleted any digital photo copies and shredded all paper ones.

 

Hugs

 Danielle Marie

 

 

Danielle,

I still feel like there is a great misunderstanding. I am not worried about saving my images from personal use, whatever that may be or hiding myself from the world.

 

I am just trying to let people who have never seen me, know the real me and not some fake or manipulated photo. I have all of the original images, no one has those. What are on the web are smaller representatives of the originals, not as good in many ways.

I know various means of protecting my photos from downloading; I just don’t feel it is necessary.

 

I am a woman 24/7, pass more and more and really don’t think imaging tricks are necessary, nor are they wanted. I have nothing to hide and am not shying away from the public eye at all. I am in credits of many films as an actress and/or make up artist that get shown around the world and on other (client) web sites as the web designer or graphic artist.

I don’t care if you hang a picture in your cafeteria at school or at work! Just have it be me, not retouched and do not try to make money from them. Always ask for my written permission first!

 

You can keep whatever pix you like, manipulate them in anyway to your hearts content, as long as you and I are the only ones who see the results, without my permission otherwise specifically.

 

My web site has always said (on the Photos page):

http://jenellerose.com/photo.html

 

Copyright Notice: All Photographs and Text on this site are Copyright © by Jenelle Rose or by the respective site/page owners referenced or hyper linked to by this site. Reproduction in any form is strictly prohibited without the written consent of the copyright owners. Commercial use is not allowed and will be prosecuted. Note: This does not mean that you cannot copy and print any materials here for your own private and personal use. Please do!

 

Thanks for trying to understand. I hope we are on common ground now.

Have fun!

 Jenelle Rose  


From: stella
Sent: Sunday, March 13, 2005 12:58 AM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: advice

I have just started on premarine 1.25 twice a day about a week ago. Can you tell me to what to expect? How long until I can't stop? Your site is the best I have found on the mental effects of estrogen on males. What are the first signs? Thank you very much!!!

Thank you for your comments.

Wow! You know I have a section on hormones, right? It is in the Transsexual Advice section. Personally I do not know much about Premarin. I wouldn't take it because I have seen TS's who have gotten the double mound effect to their breasts and it is not a natural hormone in the human body as it comes from horse urine.

I prefer Estrogen in one of the three forms of pills, shots or transdermal patches, the last my method of choice with minimal ill effects and in fact recommended for those who smoke, are older or have concerns about this stuff going thru the system twice which it does with all but this way.

The effects would be totally dependant on the person taking the hormones. You have to factor body size, genetics and other considerations. Most males grow to under a natural cup size of genetic woman and that usually means an A for you. They say you can get a decent idea from looking at your mother or sisters. My daughter at 17 is quite large and I am a B and still growing. I have no idea how large my mother was and have no sisters.

As to how long, I presume you mean the effects of Estrogen when it starts to make changes but also there is the consideration of the point of no return as you may also be alluding to that I can fill you in as well as on some of what to expect in other regards. To do this I am putting my reply as an article I am writing and will have on the Jenellerose web site under the section Transsexual Advice. Look for my answers there but feel free if there are any other questions, about anything that you do not find perusing the web site.

Thank you,

Jenelle Rose 


From: Mona
Sent: Tuesday, March 15, 2005 10:20 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: (no subject)

God blessed you. You have a very interesting and beautiful pages. Keep the good work. 

Thank you so much! Glad you like and hope you found what you were looking for and continue to visit often!

 Jenelle Rose  


From: tbiss
Sent: Tuesday, March 15, 2005 5:10 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: Clevage Help

Jenelle,

Hi my name is Tom but i go by Tammy when im dressed in femme and my question is for you:

I Purchased a Diva Clevage creator and it says to use make up to make the cleavage more belevable and all i have is this for makeup to use and cant afford to get anymore than what i have NYC Translucent Face Powder, Two types of three blushes from The Color Workshop one has kinda of a flesh tone to it, then four types of Eyeshadow in differnet sorts also From the Color workshop one is like a dark purple no blacks, Perfecting Makeup Lightweight Formula From Cover Girl and NYC Cover Stick Natural, so my question is what should i use to help me create better cleavage thats beleviable when i wear my 38D forms and bra?

thanks,
Tom (Tammy)

Tammy,

I have several comments to make in answering your question and helping you out.

You may have what you need in the shadows you have or even a blush. The Perfecting makeup from Cover Girl will also be used.

Here is what I would do to create cleavage.

First, I question two things. The first is whether a 38D size breast is too large to be believable and to note that you can get far better cleavage by using your own skin, a push-up bra and either of two types of bra/breast enhancers in the B/C range. You will find the exact step by step method for achieving the effect in my Dear Jenelle section of the JenelleRose web site.

To make the most of what you have in makeup, put the Diva cleavage enhancer on with the closure in front, opposite a normal bra. The bra goes on after. One thing to look out for is that it does not show under your clothing, stick out or be obvious in any way, a hard thing to achieve but necessary.

The make up goes on between the breasts or cleavage. Starting with a darker shade of brown, not the darkest but a medium, brush this on right at the center, between the breasts. Next fan this, following the curves- out and up to be more natural and follow this with the Cover Girl directly on the inner part of the breast and up. You’re done but remember; less is more, especially in this case!

I don’t have a clue as to your skin tone, eye or hair color but I would say purple is not something you want to use to come anywhere near to passing as a girl unless you are very dark skinned. It is strictly for fun and should be used as such, in my opinion. You would be better, if you are any shade of fair, olive or rosy skin by sticking with two to four (3 is usually appropriate) of browns or earth tones. These go with most any eye and along with black or brown mascara and a brown or black liner, should be all you need. You can find these at any drug store for just a few dollars each. Cover Girl, Revlon, L’Oreal are all good brands. Sometimes you can find great buys at closeouts but watch what is available carefully.

I didn’t say anything about applying foundation, concealer, powder or any of that. Please see my makeup section for so much already there on doing your face. Also remember to use a proper skin care routine which includes a light moisturizer based on skin type and good eating habits.

Thanks for writing!

 Jenelle Rose  


From: ahsan
Sent: Tuesday, March 15, 2005 7:58 AM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: ahsanuddin01@yahoo.com

hay  h r u u r looking very beautiful

Thank you very much Ahsan!

Jenelle Rose   


From: Ladyg
Sent: Thursday, March 17, 2005 8:38 AM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: (no subject)

my eyes are far apart i was wondering do you have any advice ( for plucking them to make my eyes look closer together please email me soon )  thank you

Make up is the biggest consideration. Plucking is a whole other subject. I have much already in the Advice/makeup sections on both. 

In essence, you want to avoid the uni-brow, keep brows for the most part thicker but not too long, rather than narrow; a somewhat high arch is usually preferred but not always, wear the same shade on your brows as your natural hair, never pluck from the top, tweeze only one hair at a time with a good tweezers like a Tweezerman’s and always follow your brow bone.

Good brows frame the face. Do not paint them on. Use shadow with a brush or a pencil, applying with short strokes, narrowing to the tip and use the handle of the brush to determine the length of the brow, its apex and its starting point by aligning between your nose and eyes.

Most males’ eyes are not only not as open as most women’s, their lashes are not as long and their brow hair is more course.

Brows take a lot of maintenance and I would recommend starting out at a shop who can do it professionally for you first and then keep them maintained every time you apply makeup or every couple of days.

As for the eyes themselves, this is where it gets fun. Lighter, inner eyes are almost always called for but you can play with the lash line and other means to create more open eyes, and for the needs of your question. It has less to do with your brows than your question seems to be asking.

 Jenelle Rose  


From: Jim
Sent: Tuesday, March 22, 2005 4:55 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: like your photos

got any 2003 and 2005 pix?

Hi my name is Jim and I just perused your photo album. I like it

Jim

Thanks Jim. Glad you perused and liked it.

Look around for those others. They are all there.

Jenelle Rose  

From: Joe
Sent: Sunday, March 20, 2005 5:26 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: I find your article very interesting as I am considering doing it

 Jenelle, 

I am 55 years old and my biggest and most wanted desire is to take hormones and experience a life of a woman with the hormonal changes and the feelings that a woman goes through.  I am not wanting to do this because of sexual reasons although the thought of making love to a man with my breasts being sucked and going through sex with the emotional feelings of a woman excites me, should I abandon any thought of doing this life ending experience that I would consider the ultimate.  Please advise me as I respect what you are saying…

I would like to more than anything else

Joe,

As I understand it, you want to take hormones but stay a guy?

I have to tell you that most women do not want their boyfriends to have breasts. Have you considered complications like being in a men’s dressing room or taking a shower after a workout at a gym (or doing exercises with breasts – they DO get in the way, lol and you will be a bit weaker in upper arm strength, have a different body distribution pattern and so on) or how you would manage getting away with breasts at work or doing other things as a man?

I heard a funny story about a guy with breasts who got caught in the rain. You will have to be careful about how you dress. How would you take something like that happening? In case you don’t realize a couple of things, hormones with eventually make you not able to have an erection, at least not without some help from medicines and women will consider you a woman and your choices will be very much less with any hetero woman, especially in your case as you would be sitting on a fence, in-between two genders. There are many problems with doing what you are considering. Think about it, please.

There is also the fact that you will probably only grow to a cup size smaller than a GG, meaning a size A, not very big-that is a one inch difference between your band size and nipple.

I am not the ordinary. I have B’s and am still growing; my endocrinologist hadn’t seen anything like me and thinks I will be at least a natural C cup eventually.

I just had my first mammogram with the story about that elsewhere on the Jenellerose web site. There are TS’s on hormones for five years and they still have nothing at all; these are the ones who have to get implants, if they want breasts.

For bra cup, measure under your breasts, add 5 inches or only three if you are over 33” and then subtract the measurement that goes around your nipple. 1”=A, 2”=B, #’=C, etc. Most natural women as stated above will grow to a B, some to an A and there are a lot of women who get implants and love them but there are risks and many issues to consider about that for they cost a lot, can get hard, rupture, are not as soft as natural breasts and have to be replaced at 10 to 12 year intervals.

Jenelle Rose  


From: Suzie
Sent: Monday, April 04, 2005 1:28 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: register

i love your pages..been at your page & i love it. keep me updated

you look so pretty. i am a crossdresser & have been doing it for about 20 years. i have a very supportive with that loves it when i dress up as Suzie.  i am working on a web page. you look fantastic honey.

Love Ya, Suzie

Will keep you updated Suzie! Take a look now and return again often, as I am making some changes, updates and additions.

Jenelle Rose   


Sent: Wednesday, April 13, 2005 10:04 AM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: Data posted to http://jenellerose.com/feedback form

MessageType:      Praise

Subject:          (Other) 

Username:         karthik

Comments: 

 i have seen ur photos i liked u r so hot

i fell in love with u like anything if u agree i want to marry u please accept my

wish 

Thank you for the lovely note and offer but alas, I am not interested at this time.

Thanks anyway and hope you stay a fan!

Jenelle Rose 


From: Tomasz
Sent: Tuesday, April 19, 2005 7:02 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: register

Hi! I'm from Poland. Very, very good site.

Tom

Thank you. I have you registered. The site is being updated currently-new home page/navigation buttons that link directly to sections of pages and there will be many new features, article updates and so on. Thank you for writing!

Jenelle Rose  


From: Cindy
Sent: Friday, May 06, 2005 11:17 AM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: Looking for get away?
 

Looking for a get away for a cross dresser, who thinking of going pos op, around New England area. One that will let me be Cindy for the weekend when I can save some money. Wife do not like the Idea, wife threaten a devorce, and my two girls do not know.

If you have any places, please contact me or reply to this letter.

All alone
Cindy
 

The way I see it Cindy is you are no where near ready yet to go post-op! Follow the Dr. Benjamin Standards of Care (SOC) –get a therapist, use doctors’ supervision for starting hormones, getting yourself tested before hand, DO come out to all and be prepared to lose everything! Live as woman for at least a year, as per the SOC and you will see that is not easy transitioning with a lot of roadblocks, bumps, potential loss of job and even your family to consider.

Personally, I had little to lose, am in a good city with great health to follow my dreams, already had a great TG-aware therapist, have the best Endocrinologist you will find anywhere and a network of friends, not to mention this web site that has helped tremendously along the way.

It is hard, believe me but very doable and I have never been happier.

Please consider what the risks are and don’t wear blinders to all the potential hardship you can bring on yourself. It is a very real possibility unless everything goes just so with a LOT of hard work and mistakes made along the way.

I will tell you what I wrote someone else as for getting together with others like yourself.

Try going to gay clubs, drag shows and other such places but take someone with you and be very careful. Maybe go straight, in drab, not drag as you check these places out the first time. Always travel with someone and stay away from red-neck/country bars as they could pose more of a danger. Anywhere there is drinking and people who don’t get it are dangerous places to be or go to.

Be very careful, please. Chances are you will find a few people of like spirit to hang with like at someone’s home or a TG-friendly bar or restaurant.

Good luck!

Jenelle Rose  


From: Howard
Sent: Saturday, April 23, 2005 12:52 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: OFFICE MODELLING PHOTOS
 

CONGRATULATIONS!
What a beautiful transformation you’ve taken on.
There’s more than a bit of Nicole Kidman showing
-and that ain’t at all bad.
I hope that you’re really happy with the you that you’re becoming.
All the best
Ellen
 

Thank you Ellen for such a nice note! I will have to take another look at Nicole Kidman to see what you mean, lol.

I sincerely appreciate your comments and yes, I am very satisfied at how things are going; couldn’t be happier and I will try to keep my site updated with all the latest about me as well as being a resource to others.

I love being a woman!

Jenelle Rose  


From: David
Sent: Monday, March 07, 2005 5:25 AM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: Web site - hi

I am David in London uk, like your web site, r u single?

Best Regards

David x

I am in the USA, single, lesbian and not looking. Thank you anyway, that's sweet. 

Jenelle Rose 


From: karim
Sent: Tuesday, April 12, 2005 5:46 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com

bonjour je suis un homme j’aime bien les transsexuelle dans la vie

je suis karim 36ans 1m80 65kg yeux marron cheveux noir

je suis un homme cool dans la vie même sympa

karimdk1969@hotmail.com

 

Translation:

hello I am a man I like the transsexual in the life I am Karim 36ans1m80 65kg eyes chestnut hair black I am a cool man in the even sympathetic life

Thanks for writing Karim. Not sure there is a question in there but glad you are on board!

Good luck! 

Jenelle Rose 


From: Chryss
Sent: Friday, April 15, 2005 11:26 AM
To: Vanity Club

 

> Women are the "weaker sex"? Yeah right

 

I knew that was completely false when I heard Carol Burnett's description of childbirth:  "Giving birth is like taking your lower lip and forcing it over your head.."

I would have said that woman are the stronger sex simply for wearing heels on a daily basis for hours on end.

Love,

Lill

Thank you Chryss for the passing Womanhood along and to you Lilly for making the observation about women and heels. I had to do that the other day --spent a whole day in very high (3 ½” ) heel pumps as part of a suit and taking a side trip to the mall and walking to the point that my feet felt weak and wobbly, realizing, I am sure, that I looked more and more silly the longer I walked in them and there was no seating around to take a load off! I now know to take along alternative shoes for walking (!) whenever I go out in very high pumps. Anything less than 3 1/2" I have no problem with.

I really got a lot out of this and feel that there is so much I missed while growing up, not being a genetic girl.

 

Chryss, can I post this on my web site, Jenelle Rose?

Thank you,

Jenelle Rose 

VC280

Subject: RE: VC: Womanhood


From: gale g
Sent: Tuesday, May 10, 2005 9:20 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: coming out

Hello Jenelle : I would like to ask if  you can tell where to find others like myself who would like to be together to have some time together and be able to get out of the closet??? I live in southeast wisconsin can you help me please.         thanks gg

Hi Gale,

Have you tried googling the area where you want to meet to see if there is something like what you are looking for, already going on? Otherwise, I have step by step ways to start one on the Jenellerose web site. Try going to gay clubs, drag shows and other such places but take someone with you and be very careful. Maybe go straight, in drab, not drag as you check these places out the first time.

Always travel with someone and stay away from red-neck/country bars as they could pose more of a danger. Anywhere there is drinking and people who don’t get it are dangerous places to be or go to.

Be very careful, please. Chances are you will find a few people of like spirit to hang with like at someone’s home or a TG-friendly bar or restaurant.

Good luck to you, 

Jenelle Rose  


From: BRANDON

Sent: Wednesday, May 11, 2005 11:39 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: help on adams apple

i have one question: how do i hide my adams apple so i

dont get read when cding im new to this and i have a

preety big one and cant seem to figure out a way to

hide it please help 

Brandon,

Thanks for writing. There are many reasons a male will not necessarily pass or get read. The more of these you can eliminate, the better off you will be in that department.

You mention the Adam's apple but there are also these considerations: broad shoulders, height and overall body size and weight, your walk, talk, voice, mannerisms, how you carry yourself, even your head and things like angles of your nose, your hips and the list goes on and on.

TS's will go for a trachea shave but that is extreme and may not be an acceptable course for many, especially cross dressers as there are risks with any surgery and this is no exception.

You have two options, wear clothing that covers the neck, specifically the apple and you can use turtle necks or scarves to manage this trick or makeup on which, is only effective if it is small to begin with and you say yours it is not.

If you try makeup, use the principle of light and dark. Lighter/highlighter brings objects to the fore and darker sends them back. To darken the Adam's apple, use bronzer or a light shade of shadow but realize that a side view will still give you away.

Unfortunately there are not a lot of options for you on this one.

 Jenelle Rose 


From: cathy

Sent: Monday, January 31, 2005 5:39 AM

To: jenelle@jenellerose.com

Subject: permission to link to site?

 

Hi Jenelle,

 

I'm writing to request permission to add a link to the page:

http://jenellerose.com/htmlpostings/darkside/ControllingtheUrge.htm

The link would be on my website for Crossdresser Support:

http://ourworld.compuserve.com/homepages/cathytg/essays.htm

 

As you know, Karen Murphy's website is no longer online, so it's good that you have a version of her article. 

 

In visiting your webpage I couldn't help but notice your poem.  It's seems so sad.  Yet your photos show that you are so beautiful!  Maybe people worry too much about having a "relationship."  Could it be that if we think we need someone to be happy, then we are guaranteeing unhappiness for ourselves?  It's like God (or, if you prefer, the Universe) is saying, "oh you silly person.  You think you need more than you have to be happy."  So to teach us a lesson to appreciate what we do have, God doesn't give us this thing.  It's really a good think and shows God's love for us--because it leads to our happiness :)

 

I'm sorry that you feel if people "tolerate, but don't accept" you.  I believe there is a secret trick for this.  As a general rule, I have found that others relate to us (1) according to how we relate to them (okay that is nothing new), and (2) according to how we relate to ourselves.  It seems like you've had self esteem issues all your life.

Ones attitude towards oneself is so very important.  If one feels happy, confident, and, most importantly, satisfied with one's relationship with God, then how others treat you is a minor concern.

As St. Francis said,:

 

   Where there is hatred, let me sow love;

   where there is injury, pardon...

   grant that I may not so much seek...

   to be understood as to understand;

   to be loved as to love.

 

It's too bad you had an unpleasant experience at church.  But again, a strong, grounded person us not overly upset by such things.  Sometimes people can be such cruel bullies.  But a bully only picks on someone

who se feelings will be hurt.  As Jesus instucted his disciples, "If they persecute you in one place, go to the next."  It doesn't have to be big deal.  If it were me, I could easily pray for such a person.

Remember, anything that happens, even if it is a little unpleasant for a moment, God allows to happen to gently remind us of something.

Please forgive me for presuming so much :)

 

Cheers,

Cathy

Cathy, (chatty Cathy, lol?)

Hello hon.

Yes, you may link to the article but I prefer you link to it rather than copy it to another site, as that is the agreement I had with Karen who has given me the permission to post on my site. It would be nice if you would give the main site URL along with it-Jenellerose.com that serves the GLBT community at large.

I have moved on in several ways, relating to your comments about things you read on my web site but have not, as yet updated the site to reflect the feelings I am about to share with you.  

The poem was written at a down point for me relating to the holiday season, my families and sometime society's rejection of me and depression, were a result of many surgeries in such quick order. I have another surgery tomorrow to fix the right cheek implant that was taken out when it became exposed, so this is still on-going.

I no longer feel so down and in fact, my brothers invited me for drinks after the Christmas dinner and nothing bad happened; found a girl fiend who I really like quite a bit-the feeling is mutual and what is ironic, it turns out I was looking in the wrong place for such a relationship. Once I switched from a "male looking for a female" to a woman looking for a woman", it came about quickly. My girlfriend is in fact, a lesbian and has never been with a male before and even considers me 90% female!

How quick things can change! The church thing is water under the bridge. The article now serves to only give strength to others where that kind of bigotry could also happen to them as we present ourselves as females, especially in the religious environment of churches.

This wasn’t a church service like you think, this was a weekend support group for those recently divorced. They didn’t know I was a Transgender when I got the invitation and paid upfront. They still, to this day have not apologized even when someone in the office said they would. I have forgotten the incident.

Not sure about your self esteem comment either, you DO presume a lot!

Thank you for asking rather than just doing as in the link and article. It is nice to know what is going on and always great to talk to a sister!

Take care and good luck to you!

Jenelle 


From: Heidi
Sent: Wednesday, February 16, 2005 2:56 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: Re: makeup question?????

hi hun

i found you when i was looking for makeup and i found your name. How funny..... what other colors are nice ? that color matched my skin tones i have dark hair and hazel eyes... Im so mad i can’t find it when i searched

also...are you a makeup artist??

Thanks for all your help you seem to know a lot... Heidi

Hello!

I am a make up artist, as you thought; film work mostly, though I do freelance work for MAC and other lines like when a new store opens in a mall and/or they need help doing makeovers quickly and to sell product. I go by Jenelle Rose. I am in front of the camera as an actress on occasion-two films this past year and sometimes interviews for TV shows as a guest. I can go and be noticed by someone, most anywhere; happened Sunday while out. Someone knew me from a film I did last year (make up artist and actress). I’m also well known on the web as well as locally. Where are you located?  

I have a web site that is used by theaters around the country as a resource in their productions when it comes to makeup and I have clients from all walks such as actresses and models looking to do portfolios, some pint work as an assist to photographers on occasion and men who want to look like ladies and so on. I get it all.

For colors, pinks are always nice as well as various shades of red. I am not wild about anything even remotely purple for myself but I get your point. I have used it effectively on dark skinned women and have some pictures online with that look of them for movies I worked on.

My favorites are nudes, neutrals and browns. Fuchsia is fun. If I had a picture of you, I could give more specific ideas and tips.

Look forward to hearing from you again!

Jenelle


From: Diane
Sent: Friday, April 08, 2005 10:12 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: Need help going e-stealth...

Hi Jenelle:

 

A posting I wrote to a TG newsgroup some time ago appears on your site.

I don't have a problem with that, in fact, it's flattering to be included.

However, I'm trying to disassociate myself from tranny related stuff -- trying to go e-stealth :-)

Could you remove my email address from that page? The page is under:  Contributions/Out in Public 

Thanks,

 

Diane

PS:  Glad I discovered you site, I'm particularly interested in your transition process (which I hope is discussed somewhere in all those pages! 

 

Diane,

Done my dear. Have taken your email and name off and left you as anonymous. If anything else bothers you, let me know. I am happy having your comments on the site. The more input from the community, the better. My progression is going quite well, thank you. Hope yours is as well.

Kisses,

Jenelle Rose  


From: Cindy
Sent: Friday, May 06, 2005 11:17 AM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: Looking for get away?
 

Looking for a get away for a cross dresser, who thinking of going pos op, around New England area. One that will let be Cindy for the week end when I can save some money. Wife do not like the Idea, wife threaten a devorce, and my two girls do not know.

If you have any places, please contact me, or reply to this letter.

All alone
Cindy

Hi Cindy

Thanks for writing. Have you thought of or do you know about Provincetown? That is in the area and very GLBT friendly! It would make a perfect spot for you to find yourself and relish in your being. Otherwise, I would just Google with the particulars you gave me or try Googling for a TG resource/support group in the area and ask them for specifics or places they know of.

Good luck and have fun! I am sorry to hear about the family situation. I am here if needed dear.

Sincerely, 

Jenelle Rose

 


From: Marcy
Sent: Monday, May 09, 2005 3:42 PM
To: Jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: HI

HI This is Marcy

You look very pretty and VERY real. I don't know much about you.

I am a GG girl that is interested in finding a t-girl with the hopes of a long term relationship developing.

I have been a lesbian for about 5 years now, find myself missing the tool a man has, but i just do not enjoy a mans body, so I thought a t-girl would be perfect. I have known a few in the past and liked them, they have all moved on now though.

So if your interested i'd love for us to try and get to know each other. Hear is a picture of me. I hope I hear back from you, bye bye Marcy


Hello Marcy!

…yes I look so real, I get mistaken for a woman (gg) all the time like last week when I had my first mammogram (!) done. The woman testing me, who already did her thing and saw my breasts and me naked from the waist up, asked some questions and besides the usual about allergies, cancer in the family, etc, she asked if I had ever been pregnant! When was my last period! Am I now or have I ever been on hormones!

I receive compliments all the time, for instance, another woman who thought I looked very nice and very real last week.

You can see thru my web site, my development thru the years.

I have been a lesbian all my life, lol! Honestly, if I had been born a woman I still would prefer another woman.

When I first saw your pix, I said oh my…you are very pretty. Eventually when I have the money to afford it, I will have reassignment surgery. I would rather have the female genitals than what I have and the underwear would fit much better, LOL!

Never thought I would want to do it b/c I like being in a woman so much; that closeness and feeling of being surrounded by a woman is impossible to replace.

I had always thought I offered the best of both worlds to a woman. It is only recently that I discovered that it is lesbians or BI’s I appeal to. I am currently with one now.

Thank you!

Jenelle Rose  


 

From: r r
Sent: Monday, May 23, 2005 6:28 AM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: miriam alias victoria

Hi Jenelle,

I'm a fan of the beautifull Miriam... alias Victoria.

I've seen some pics of her on your web site. can u give me some more information?

thanks

Andrea

 

I googled for Miriam and came up with very little, other than my own web site there was this:

http://www.transfamily.org/trans.htm And references to "Something about Miriam".

Jenellerose.com is one of few sites that has pictures of this very pretty woman.

I have been told this before about other transwomen in the community. 

Jenelle Rose  

Additional pix of Miriam sent in by RR 5/24, not verified:

Pic on the right is labeled Victoria

 

Click image for a larger picture

 


From: aron anderson
Sent: Thursday, June 02, 2005 5:54 PM
To: jenelle@jenellerose.com
Subject: register

hi jenelle i think your  wonderfull and smart  and every thing a great woman should be.

thanks arona

Arona,

Thank you honey! Such praise :  )

 Jenelle Rose  


From: Suzanne Kent
Sent: Thursday, June 16, 2005 5:26 AM
Subject: site

Dear  Jenelle, have just found your site thru a freind, must say it is amazing.  I am a t girl from england have you heard of it ?lol, happily married to a very supportive partner who participates and enjoys our lifestyle [Sue] Have enclosed picture taken at a gay couples blessing we attended, it was a great day. Am just preparing to go away for four days to an event in a country house, cant wait! Again thanks for great site, Love, an English Sister Rachael K**

Rachael,

Hello and thanks not only for writing but a lovely picture of the two of you! I am sure you had a great time by the looks of things! Let me know how the other event went; would be interested in hearing.

I sincerely appreciate your comments and must apologize for taking so long in getting back to you. It had been a crazy year. I have been keeping everyone up to speed however through my web sites, if not emails, which I am not always so good at, though not bad, considering how many I get. I tend to write a lot sometimes… anyways stay in touch and glad you like the site. We really are not that far apart, now are we? Sure, I had heard something about England in high school, me thinks…?

 Jenelle Rose  


From: win2004@nexpoint.net
Sent: Saturday, June 25, 2005 3:20 PM
Subject: Data posted to feedback form 1 of http://jenellerose.com

MessageType:      Praise

Subject:          About Jenelle

Username:         Michael

Comments: Bless your heart.  So nice to have this site up.  Wishing you all the best.


From: morris mintenko
Sent: Wednesday, June 29, 2005 3:56 PM
Subject: re: great pics

just looked at your site and would like to say great pics, just thought I would comment your a very good looking women.

thanks

morris

Thank you!

Jenelle Rose  


From: Johncena
Sent: Wednesday, June 29, 2005 6:31 PM

hey man great site

Thank you. Your comments are appreciated!


From: bady
Sent: Monday, July 11, 2005 10:07 AM
Subject: love trans

Hallo

its nice to have kontackt with One like you , i love transexual , One like you comes fast into the heart . I am inspire of your beauty. The fotos in The Email is for you.

 

Thank you. Glad I inspire you. I am into women though, ok? I appreciate your appreciation just the same, thank you.
Curious, what is it about transwomen that you like?


From: ggoetsch
Sent: Monday, July 18, 2005 5:16 AM
Subject: Hello

Hello Jenelle,

This is Richard, out here in San Diego, CA. I just dropped by to see your web site, how are the hormones working out? you look great from some of the pictures I have seen. Hey Jenelle, do you need to be a member to use the Personals section of your web site? when I hit send a message came up and said Connect to www,jenellerose.com, poped in and it asked for a User name and password so must I be a member of your group? to send the form for those seeking a relationship or am I just not thinking? it's late. Ho! my e mail has changed to xxx Take care and God Bless you.

Hugs

Richard Goetsch

 

Richard,

Pretty paper.

Thank you for visiting and keeping in touch with me and the site. Thanks for your comments. The hormones are going well. Still on 200mg/day Spiro and .1 x2 patches (dots) of Estrodiol rotated twice per week. I am a C cup now and still growing. I have grown an inch this year and a half inch just in last couple of months. Face seems to be looking better all the time and waist keeps looking better. My butt has always looked decent but it is getting rounder and more defined. I’m getting revision surgery on my face and neck (a tightening of the neck and my nose rotated upwards) in September/October.

Not related, have had continuing problems with cheek implants, now the left side-is infected and hurts to the touch, also a draining down my throat. Taking meds for these issues and keeping a close eye on things. Have a few more pics to go up, lots of information, links and other when time prevails.

Have a live-in g/f now and things are going quite well; still looking for a day job (makeup, makeup sales or PC tech) to supplement my self-employment which is a struggle. Had a hard drive go bad recently and that took a lot of stuff with it as it wasn’t backed up. Installing software as needed very slowly and haven’t gotten back to the JR web site just yet; will soon. Just finished a movie and it had a showing last week; came out well. I was makeup artist, stylist and hair dresser. See cincyfilms.com for pics and info.

You do not need to be a member of anything to post on the personals, however I did just change some things on site including that area just before I lost the hard drive. I will check into it to make sure things work as they should. Please try again tomorrow or later today.
Will post some of what I told you on site replacing that info about the site being down.

Wish I lived in San Diego or anywhere in Southern California. I had lived there in early to mid 70’s and miss it terribly.

Sincerely,

Jenelle Rose  

Jenelle,
It's great to here from you, I'm sorry to hear about the cheek implants, but you are looking great and I wish you all the luck in the world. Ho my home number is xxx just to bring you up to date. I had to make some changes too with my computer and I'm adding more memory to bring me up from 512 to 1024MB and I have plans to do more as time go's on.
I have also joind a hand full of TG chat rooms and Tranny web, when I'm talking I use Karen G.

Can you help me with information on a Avodart an anti-androgen. I need to fined something to stop hairloss, I have started using Retin-A with Minoxidil but I need to do more to turn this thing around so I'm thinking of using this Avodart, here is the info that I looked up on it what do you think? the Drug-related side effects during the first six months were as follows: impotence (4.7 percent vs. 1.7 percent for placebo), decreased libido (3 percent vs. 1.4 percent), breast tenderness and breast enlargement (gynecomastia; 0.5 percent vs. 0.2 percent) and ejaculation disorders (1.4 percent vs. 0.5 percent). The incidence of most drug-related sexual side effects decreased with duration of treatment.enlargement remained constant over The incidence of drug-related breast tenderness and breast enlargement in the treatment period. If I stopped taking it will my breast return to normal? I'm a CD but I'm not yet a TS and having breast will make problems at work.

Avodart is the new medication from GlaxoSmithKline for reducing DHT. Dihydrotestosterone (DHT) is the main hormone linked to hairloss. Propecia prevents one of two enzymes from being converted into DHT and blocks 2/3 of the DHT production. The new medication Avodart blocks both enzymes in the body that convert into DHT and reduces overall DHT production by over 93%.


I think you said that you are taking spironolactone? Anti-Androgen and this is what I have found. Possible side effects
SIDE EFFECTS, that may go away during treatment, include abdominal cramping, nausea, diarrhea, headache, or change in sexual ability. If they continue or are bothersome, check with your doctor. CHECK WITH YOUR DOCTOR AS SOON AS POSSIBLE if you experience dry mouth, excessive thirst, unusual tiredness, unusual muscle weakness, skin rash, deepening of voice, irregular or no menstrual periods, slowed heart rate, or enlarged breasts in men or breast tenderness in women. If you notice any unusual effects, contact your doctor, nurse, or pharmacist.
I'll stay on top of the new changes on your web site and save it my desktop, you must have one of the best sites in the U.S. it's just full of information for people to use. Will be careful and a big Hug to you.

All my best to you and yours
Richard// Karen



From:
waqas arif
Sent: Wednesday, July 20, 2005 9:20 AM
Subject: Hello Rose, This is Waqas.

Hi Dear,

My name is waqas. I am 22.

I have seen your web site whice is outstanding. you are realy pretty.

Thanks,

Bye

 

Thank, thank you, thank you!

Much appreciated,

Jenelle Rose  

From: waqas arif
Sent: Thursday, August 04, 2005 3:20 AM
Subject: RE: Hello Rose, This is Waqas.

 

Hi Jenelle, 

Hope you are keeping well. Thanks for the mail.

I am seeking for the female friend, can you help me? 

I will be very greatful to you.

I don’t know what you mean. You are looking for a girlfriend? A TS? Looking for something that is for a GG? Please explain. How can I help?

Jenelle Rose  

From: waqas
Sent: Friday, August 05, 2005 11:18 AM
Subject: RE: Hello Rose, This is Waqas.

Hi Rose,

How are you, first of all thanks for the mail.

Yes I am looking for a girlfrind. Is it possible? You know why I am asking you, because you have so many friends.

Thanks,

 

And what is the meaning of GG & A TS?

Really don’t know what you want from me, please explain (I am only interested in women). A GG is a genetic girl, a TS is a transsexual, what I am…a woman who once was a man who is transitioning to a woman (there are various stages of TS’s), therefore I am a lesbian.  

Not all TS’s have all the surgeries-breast augmentation, SRS (genital reassignment), etc. My breasts are real, size B cup (a 36B). I see a doctor for my hormones; some people do not, some take silicone injections, fast but a very dangerous way to get breasts, others take hormone shots or pills and then there are a multitude of types of hormones to take Premarin, Estrodiol, etc..

A TG (Transgendered person) identifies with the opposite sex. Sex and gender are not the same thing. Gender is about Identity.

Hope this helps,

Jenelle Rose  


From: Ron
Sent: Monday, July 25, 2005 2:52 PM
Subject: register

Hi Jenelle

Love yor web site

i have been cd since i was 10 years of age,now on hormones age 50 still married wife understands

i will send you a few stories one day keep up the good work

Veronica

 

Veronica,

Thank you. You're registered and I will be anxiously awaiting the stories you have. I edit the monthly newsletter for the local support group and the January issue will be on "Transitions", featuring stories about stepping out, coming to terms with our new-found selves and things of that sort; interpret it any way you like.

I am glad your wife understands. That is very good to have.

Good luck to you!

Jenelle Rose  

From: Ron
Sent: Tuesday, August 02, 2005 2:49 PM
Subject: hormones 

Hi Jenelle

Great web site, I have started using climara 7mg patches and my brests have grown over a size A

in three weeks is this because i only have one testical, i did have a bit of flesh before this, but they are now takin shape as well, its great and i am quite exited about it, should i up the dose to create fat distribution?

Love, Veronica

 

Veronica,

I am not qualified in any way to answer your question. See a doctor please and get the proper care before you do some serious damage to yourself. Please follow the Dr. Benjamin Standards of Care as you are only hurting yourself by not doing so. You should be getting baseline blood tests, a lipids test, a PSA and so much more beyond the scope of this email.

 Jenelle Rose  


From: Jonathin
Sent: Wednesday, July 27, 2005 12:51 PM
Subject: Like your site, but your answer to a question left me with more Questions =)

Hi Sweetie,
I can see your site is helping many in the Tg community as I am no exception, so I wanted to thank you but I have some questions that will help me become less likely to be read when I step out for an evening of fun as a CD. I am a bit frustrated at the moment and befuddled about how to conceal my genitals. You responded to a question from Divara, The Article is called "What about "tucking" techniques, risks, etc.?". Your response helped me understand a potential way to hide my masculine endowment but I can only make educated guesses about where and how to get my testicles into my body and this could be dangerous. Prior to my utilizing this technique I need to fully understand it so I have some questions specifically where Anotomically the balls or testicles can fit inside the body.

You write, "In any case, what you need to learn to do whether you wear one or not is to gather your balls up and push them up and into the cavity that is just in front of your rectum (where they came from".

When you say cavity, this tells me it is a pressure point and cavities are utilized in massage and Acupuncture, the cavity I believe you speak of is
CV1 or Conception Vessel 1 in Eastern medical Terminology or In Western Medical Anatomy it is the Perineum. The Perineum, is a bundle of many muscles, ligaments, tendons and nerves that cover the open area in the pelvic girdle and is also the place where a male seeking to stop an ejaculation would press deeply. Further I believe this is the fabled place that Chinese Martial Artists sought to hide their delicate Genitalia with their special training techniques call (Hope my memory of the name is
correct) The Iron Bell Technique. One major area difficult to protect in a fight has traditionally been the Genital area, and the martial artist learns how to draw his genitals into his body then begins to lightly hit the area and over time increases the intensity of the hitting, so as to eventually become unaffected by a kick to this delicate area.

Is this the area you speak of? It seems to me to be the only possible area where I can bring my balls into my body and understanding precisely what you mean will help me enjoy a more feminine look. My understanding for the moment is that opening up the area to hold my balls will take a lot of time to conditioning. You write your answer as if this is not the case, you speak simply and say first you must learn to gather your balls and place them up and into the cavity. hehe, seems the answer and technique may be easier to understand and incorporate into my life as opposed to my current understanding.

Please help me, and as I am a new visitor to your site, I may not know when you would post an answer to this question so would you be kind enough to email me telling when you posted and yes naturally I'll figure a way of thanking you appropriately. hehe, everyone says this but I actually try to be honorable as I believe in tithing and Karma. Thanks for everything, speak with you soon, Tyra

Tyra,
Well hon, No need to make things so complicated. Just take what ya got and push the balls up, put yer legs together and pull yer panties up (helps to have 'em nearly up and ready to go) and then bend the peter backward and that's it! Pull a dress, skirt or pants on and you're off!

Why make it any harder than that? It's already hard enough being a girl, why make it any harder. When you are a girl 24/7 like I am, you don't need to sweat it, don't get technical know what works and what doesn't. Bottom line, you want to hide a male bulge! That's what it's all about!


Jenelle Rose  

From: Jonathin
Sent: Thursday, July 28, 2005 3:59 PM
Subject: Thanks for your fast reply RE: Tucking, some info you may like =)

Hi Hon,

Yes, I knew it must be a simple thing but when you are new to this wonderful world you often chase your tail hehe. I believe I now understand fully what to do to tuck as I have pieced together the puzzles and finally found a chinese web page that had medical drawings of the proceedure, the words are not in english but the drawn pictures are great. The site is http://www.geocities.co.jp/Bookend-Kenji/4514/tack2.html I have some feedback for you regarding the article you wrote, it helped me understand that the procedure must be simple but =) you said "gather your balls up and push them up into the cavity that is    JUST IN FRONT OF THE RECTUM" Hehe, well the spot you speak of is the perineum which it is possible to bring your testicles into but it would require many many years to achieve this feat.  The spot I believe you meant was just up the sac which actually brings the testicles to the front of the body and yes they do

create a slight bulge.  hehe, anyway thank you for your wonderful article it helped me with an important piece of the puzzle and replying to me fast, now I can successfully tuck.  be well, see you dear, hugs and kisses, Tyra


From: Kyrie

Sent: Thursday, July 28, 2005 5:15 PM

Subject: link to your site

 

Hey Jenelle.

 

You don't know me, but I have been a frequent visitor to your site(s) over the past few years.

I have always been impressed with the many ways you have put yourself out there in the world, and in some ways I must say that I envy you. I am also a transgendered person and have been for as long as I can remember, so I suppose in that regard we are somewhat similar.

 

The reason for my writing is to ask your permission to link my site to yours, specifically in reference to the section on "creating cleavage". I was previously linked to that section of "Life's a Draag", but it has recently disappeared. There was another that described the cleavage thing quite well, but it has also disappeared.

 

When the "Cindy's Oasis" site was up and running, her section on Creating Cleavage" was one of the best I had ever seen. It was very well described and the pictures were excellent. It is a shame her site no longer exists.

 

Anyway, if you'd like to check out my site, you are most welcome to do so. Indeed, I would appreciate any feedback you might have (good or bad) so that I might make improvements to it. This is my first attempt at a website, by the way, so there is much that can be improved, I am sure.  

I know you are a musician (drummer), and guess what? Me too! I don't play enfemme, but one day, if I ever have the courage, I would love to. I'll attach a picture to this e-mail for you.  

So, having said all that, if you'd be so kind as to allow me to link to your site, I would be most grateful. I will be doing a "Creating Cleavage" thing of my own in the near future, and if it turns out well, you would be most welcome to link to it for yourself.  

Thanks so much in advance, and I hope to hear from you soon.

 

Take care. See ya.

 Hugs, Kyrie

www.kyriecd.com

 

Hi!

Yes dear, you may link to my site. I appreciate you asking and knowing who is linking to what and I will reciprocate. I will check out site and let you know what I think.

Nice to know we have so much in common. Nice picture of you behind the drums!

Sorry to hear so many girls with such terrific advice are now gone. It is a shame isn't it? I am glad I had the foresight to ask permission for the pages as I had a feeling it would come to this.

Take care,

Jenelle Rose  


From: bikeboy
Sent: Sunday, July 31, 2005 1:07 PM
Subject: estrogen timeline 

i was wondering if you could give me a timeline of your estrogen treatment (like week 1 this happened, week 2 this happened) i would greatly appriciate it! 

                                                       Confused male

I will be doing just that on a new section I plan to introduce soon to my web site called "Transition Diary".

I get lots of questions from people like yourself and though I don't intend it to be a 'do it yourself' aid to medication, it will be a diary of the changes and things as they happen to me. 

Remember, everyone is different and no one reacts the same. Genetics plays a huge part and chemistry in the body and the powerful hormones that transition requires is not something to fool around with or take lightly.

Stay tuned, it is coming!

Jenelle Rose  


From: Jam-casey
Sent: Monday, August 01, 2005 5:53 PM
Subject: Your Site
 

Congratulations for your site. All of your transexual selection are beautifull and outstanding.

Thank you.

Michael

Thanks Michael. It is a very popular area of the site. They are quite beautiful, I agree.

Jenelle Rose  


From: joe gilbride
Sent: Monday, August 01, 2005 5:53 PM
Subject: registration

hi, could you please send me the info and or forms needed to registar to jenelle rose. send to the address below.thanks!

xxx@xxx.com

Hello,

You do not need any forms or to do anything more. The register in the subject field is all I need to have.

Thank you! You have registered for updates. Hope you continue to come back anyway as there will always be updates! The emails that go out will only be once every year or two!

 Jenelle Rose  


From: groupscemo-1@yahoo.com
Sent: Tuesday, August 02, 2005 8:42 AM
Subject: Out of time links

Dear Jenelle,

I like your HP but now I can't read all because I can't practice all, I wait a job, an accomodation and maybe finding some genuine tg interested olny to have a friend I will be able to choose better the various terapie and web site, now I find a lot of commercial subscription video or photos services with credit cards and proof of "age".

I founded your pages taking part of a Yahoo! group and maybe are more safe than other ads page with credit cards subcriptions.

I just check 2 email addresse founded in Sexyads and they don't exist, so why people must write a false addresse?

I founded also various dead link.

1  is http://e1.eonline.com/ other I can send you later when I have more time and I hope also a safe and personal connection to the internet.

I drink very few liquid and for this I have (I think) dry and itchy skin, what can I do?

A day after drinking maybe 1 liter fruit yogurt I founded my feet regenerated, but like you know water bring more testosterone, so is a better solution than drinking water?

Milk make me really fit and cola I take sometimes to wake up quickly.

I have also a very important question to ask you please:

- the regular anticonceptional pill give big changing, also in the breast?

And how much?

In Uk London is Microgynon, Dianette,...What they change in my body if I take them daily?

I need also other care more than only pills?

I think to be more androgyn but not completely female at the moment.

Can you help me, please?

If you can also suggest me some clean link outside the big business that sometimes is the change of sex I appreciate a lot.

Thank you,

Vany

Vany,

Which Yahoo group did you find me by, may I ask? Just curious….

First of all, you do not give me a lot of details though you do write a lot, lol. I need to know exactly what pages you are referring to on my site to be of any help to you. I get a lot of links that are actually spamming or efforts to send my visitors to bad sites that are shut down by authorities. I take these down continuously but just as fast as they, they pop right back up again. It is a never ending battle with these guys.

If you are speaking of the Personals, there are several pages, some of which are very old now and email can get out of date very quickly. Make sure you are looking at the latest ads. The others are only there for entertainment at this point (the pictures I have on them are pretty, lol). If you see anything with lots of blue http:// stuff, do not click them, this is the crap I was talking about above and why (I finally had to do away with the Guest Book. I just couldn’t keep up with it anymore. They were making hundreds of entries and sending me thousands of emails every day!

About using contraceptives for breast growth, I advise in many places on the site not to do this. It is very bad medicine and can do much more harm than good. Please see a doctor and follow the Dr. Benjamin Standards of Care or you risk locking yourself out of the transition completely, not to mention killing yourself or causing irreparable harm and becoming another wasted life. If you wish to self-medicate because of money problems, there are still better ways. On my links pages there are links to newsgroups to those seeking both money and self-medication! That way at least you will have some guidance. I read these groups several times a week and while some of the advice is not what I would follow, most of it is ok, or at least better than not having any at all or seeking it from those you know from those in your own circle.

I fixed the http://e1.eonline.com link you were talking about and will run a scan of all the sites’ broken links which I did from time to time but haven’t with all of the surgeries (haven’t done much of anything actually lately). Thank you for reminding me to do this.

I don’t get what you are saying about testosterone, water and fruit juice however?

You should drink plenty of water. 8 glasses of water is not a joke. It does SO much for you; I can’t begin to tell you all that it does. It works wonders! I have written much about this already throughout my web site. Read the review page available from the help section. There is also a diet page linked from there you may find interesting. 

Do these points answer your questions? I would like to post this Q&A to the web site, if that were alright with you?

Thank you.

Sincerely,

Jenelle Rose  


From: Teri
Sent: Saturday, August 06, 2005 3:13 AM
Subject: Hi Jenelle Rose

     Hi Jenelle Rose,

     I happened upon your website and I really enjoyed it. You and I have a lot in common. I am guessing we are about the same age. We both have daughters, We are both divorced, and we are both Crossdressers.

     You are a little more advanced than I am in your femme ID and that was the part that I liked most about your site. It made me wonder where I might be in 5 years. Jenelle, I have been dressing on and off (no pun intended) ever since I was about 9. I started experimenting with full image dressing in my mid to late twenties. I divorced almost three years ago now (Not related to CDing) and suddenly I am discovering sort of a new attitude materializing. An "I don't care" attitude. A few months ago I shaved my legs once and for all and walked straight out the door in shorts. No one even noticed. Then I joined a CD social in my area. For the first time in my life I have a group that actually understand me. It's great. Now I am working on a growing wardrobe and I trimmed my arm hair way way down and plucked my eyebrows. What's happening to me? Where am I headed? Again, thank you for your story. I am still pretty chicken about walking out there in full dress but who knows... sites like yours encourage me.

     You seem like a busy person so I won't expect a return email. I understand completely. But just know that you are touching people with your site. 

                                                                    Teri in Concord CA

Teri,

We are very much alike!

I started in every way like you did, it is uncanny. Here I am now in full bloom and it amazes me how every year, how much more I have grown and progressed from the year before. Look at every year’s picture’s I am an open book, of course, there for everyone to see. I put my pix out there, warts and all and the transformation is absolutely amazing, even to me.

I did the same things, have the same attitude, you have; that actually breeds’ confidence and the more confidence you have, the better you look and so it goes.

I am a very busy person but eventually I do catch up to all I have to do, including emails and that includes yours. I just started a progesterone a week or so ago and I reflected on the genesis of how it all began. I will have much more to say about this in a new section of my web site called “Transition Diary”, coming soon! Look for it. It will have cross references, information, links to pictures and lot of answers to questions I get asked a lot about!

Btw, my divorce was 3 years ago too.

Jenelle Rose  


From: Lyon
Sent: Saturday, August 06, 2005 5:41 PM
Subject: A big Fan

 Jenelle

I'm a big fan

I think you should write a book

Lyon

 

Lyon

Thank you,

Why do you think so? Actually there is a playwright in NYC who asked me to review his play about a TS but once we got to talking and he learned more about me and he said he wanted to write a book about me next; still haven’t heard from him however and I never stayed in touch. He was a straight man.

 

Do you know anyone who would be interested? I have been asked a few times to do a photo story for TS magazines and was offered a layout very early on for a publication that caters to Cross-dressers. I had considered writing for mainstream press about TG issues or anything really.

I have written as a male nationally and I AM an open book but if any one out there wants to do my story, I am very interested.

 

I have a pretty good story I feel. Would anyone disagree? Does anyone really know me that reads or visits site? There is so much that people that visit really don’t know, as much as there is about me on it or about TG issues that they would be surprised to learn, where I have been but just a little sleuthing and it’s all there and it’s even linked from the site.

There ya go

I will put you down as my # 1 and president of the fan club, OK?

Yours truly,

Jenelle Rose  


From: Mp7duce
Sent: Monday, August 08, 2005 11:13 PM
Subject: your pics

Nice pics............are you still in Ohio?

I am an Ohio native. I leave and come back. Currently I’m back

Thanks for the compliment.

Jenelle Rose  


From: THOMAS
Sent: Tuesday, August 09, 2005 1:01 PM
Subject: HI

HI JENELLE
I LOVE YOU DRESS AND PANTYHOSE . YOU SEXY WOMAN ANY UP DATE MORE PICTURE
TOM

Thank you Tom.
I actually dress in pantyhose quite often for work but rarely take pictures of my office or professional work attire. Always in a rush in the morning and it is so early. It would be something to try however. Lots of great outfits’ missed and looks I would like to pass onto the pages of the website. I know that Winnie has been waiting on me to do a profile. I have the story written but no pantyhose pictures, the main thing he probably wants! I am always adding pictures! Glad you think I am a sexy woman, that heartens me, as most any woman would appreciate such praise.

Jenelle Rose  


From: ahmed baadr
Sent: Thursday, August 11, 2005 11:57 AM
Subject: ask

hi my name is ahmed from iraq i like you very mosh

Hello,

Thank you very much!

Jenelle Rose  


From: Suzieb
Sent: Friday, August 12, 2005 1:50 PM

Hello
Great site, will be back soon
Suzie

Welcome this time and anytime! Come back often!

Jenelle Rose  


From: brown
Sent: Sunday, August 14, 2005 8:06 AM
Subject: HELLO

Hi jenelle
Just thought I'd write you a short note to tell you haow much I enjoyed meeting you on net when i browsed to your site. I can't recall when I had a more pleasant time. Everything felt so natural, and you were very easy to talk to. It's hard for me to identify what it is about you that attracts me so. I suppose it might be the combination of your great sense of humor, your charming personality and your good-looks. Whatever it is, I can sense its presence. You could call it chemistry, or better yet, the possibility that we are on the same wavelength.

jenelle, I really hope that our first encounter was not our last because I felt very special when I saw you on net especailly yoiur sites. I truly want to give our friendship a chance to grow.

Well, I guess I've said enough for the time being. jenelle, have a wonderful day and, hopefully, I'll see you again real soom. If you get a chance, (write) me and tell me your thoughts.

Until I hear from you, take care of yourself.

Always,

jenelle.

Hello,

A bit confused about your name but thank you for a nice note; so glad you felt a connection. I am also a bit confused (easy for me to get); have we actually met, face to face in person?

Don’t quite know what thoughts to write, most of what I say that is of importance is already on the net somewhere. I am otherwise pretty tapped.

Currently catching up on emails on a Thanksgiving day weekend, updating the web site in-between lunch and dinner, while my GF takes a nap, and with a new job starting Monday, a newsletter that needs to get started and finished in about a week, followed by a revamped web site for an actress client and then I start all over with all my web sites in maintenance mode. Somewhere in there, I would like to get out and jam, go to some meetings, have some fun, have some cuddle time with my GF and otherwise just hang out and relax in between a normally busy life. I have at this time also to consider- tax time, holiday shopping as well as Christmas decorations and tomorrow entertaining my two daughters for a Thanksgiving dinner and watching the football game recorded on the DVR after they leave.

That’s my thought’s…

I’m sorry but I really don’t have much else to say and you really don’t give me much to respond to. I am glad you like what you read and you had a good time, that’s great. Happy holidays to you and I do hope you come back and write again.

 Jenelle Rose  


From: koos
Sent: Wednesday, August 24, 2005 6:59 PM
Subject: miss hopeless

hi jenelle, some time ago i wrote an e mail to you in which i told you that i admired you about what you had achieved in your live and i told you that i had the same feelings but that i should never come as far as you did. Three years ago i married a nice thai lady and i love her very much, i find out that she discovered my female clothing and i did not know what to tell her axactly, so i told her that these clothes belonged to my ex wife and i asked her why she want to know, she said that she was thinking that i like to wear them and i asked her what she was thinking about me i i would, to my surprise she said that she did not mind about that. I asked her if i could wear them and make love to her, just for fun and she agreed and so we did, more and more and last month we went to bangkok and we were doing some shopping and suddenly she asked me if i would like to buy sexy underwear for myself, so that i did not had to wear that old stuff from my ex wife anymore, well, ofcourse i told her. We buy a lot and she also buy silicon breast for me. I had bought premarin in drugstore and told her that it was a pill for not having babies, but she told me that she was not having periods for two months and so we went to buy a test and yes, she was pragnant, i asked her what to do with all these pills and she said to me why don''t you take them yourself, you like to have real breast don''t you, and that was one month ago, i already feel my breast tinkling now and i am sure that i will not stop taking them, but i am also scared, cause i don''t know where this storie that is really hapening to me will end, will i become a guy with breast or will i have the guts to go on and turn myself into a real woman, i am scared for my environment, what will people say, will they accept, i am not sure and more, what will my wife say if i will change into a lady, you know she is sex crazy, will she leave me for a real man, i really don''t know how to go on, can you please give me some good advice before i go crazy? thanks a lot, hopeless

Miss Hopeless,
You do have a real problem on your hands that comes down to choices of what you and she wants and you better include in her in the decision. Seems so far you have been making the decisions without her and that has to stop!
You taking hormones is going to make you non-functional as a male. If she is Ok with that, then alright but you better make sure because if she changes her mind or if you decide this is not acceptable, then you better take steps now and stop taking hormones, plain and simple. There is no turning back. Once the damage is done, it’s done. Usually this takes 6 months concerning sperm count and such. Breast development has its’ price. You cannot have one and the other as well. You can have it part way for a time with a little help but after awhile you will lose interest and have to be turned on, in short, your changes may not be acceptable to her and the game the two of you are playing, or the dress up/cross dressing is now for real and she WILL seek a real man for pleasure.
Of course your relationship could still withstand this and evolve or it might not. No one can say with absolute certainly at this stage. You take your chances; it is like playing roulette but the stakes are much higher when it comes to your relationship and love.

Best of luck to you,

 Jenelle Rose  


From: emile
Sent: Wednesday, August 24, 2005 10:15 PM
Subject: crossdressing

Dear Jenelle:
I came upon your website a couple of days ago and I love it! It's friendly and level-headed.
I read an article on your site by Karen Murphy 'The Dark side of Cross Dressing'. It was a timely article in my life in that I have been cross dressing for a month. I like wearing women's clothing and I'm comfortable about remaining closeted to my family and friends. I can see where cross dressing can become compulsive. Though I enjoy it, it's does not consume my life. I have other interests and responsibilities.
I'm seeking counseling because I still have some questions about the emotional things involved. I love being a CD and am at peace with myself about my decision. I came out to myself as a transgendered man and crossdresser.
Your site has some great stories and articles and I encourage you to keep up the great work.
"Gennee"

Gennee,
Thank you, I do try to keep my visitors level headed as I will do here with you. You say you are just starting out. I will say in almost all cases I have seen, cross-dressing becomes a compulsion, a desire so great that it becomes very difficult, if not impossible to control.
It may come and go in waves but it will become a force in your life at some point you will have to recon with.

I would seek a counselor and get a good network of people that you can count on as well as join a support group in your area. If there is none, start one of your own, I have the recipe on my site.

The article was very good indeed. Karen was very nice to let me include her series of articles on my site for shadow publication and now it seems it was a good thing she did so that they were not lost and others might have a chance at reading them as well.

Being a cross dresser has many advantages but it has many down sides as well, especially in relationships and in families within our society. Walk carefully, for it is a minefield.


 Jenelle Rose  


From: Kenneth
Sent: Sunday, August 28, 2005 1:40 AM
Subject: VC: Yearbook Photo - VC 280

After looking at your web page and seeing how beautiful you are I just wanted to say thank for sharing some of your life. I love to CD but have never gone further then the Frond Door. Would love to have a complete make over someday and then maybe I could pass. Thanks for your time. 

Kendall

PS I live in Pismo Beach California if you are ever in the area I would love to get together and chat.

Kenneth,

First of all thank you!

I don’t know if you have seen my resource site, Jenellerose.com or just the few pix at the Vanity Club but if you haven’t been to the former, please visit.  

Besides, the who knows how many photos, I gave up counting but it is probably well over 700 of just me but there are also TS’s, GG’s, and everything else you would want to see, it has 350+ links, lots of help (I mean lots of) help for CD’s, TS, (GLBT) and their SO’s and since I am a professional makeup artist, a huge section on makeup and beauty tips with basic as well as advanced technique.

There is a bunch more like surveys, hormone info, and stuff I won’t go into here; you will just have to see for yourself. The site is rated number #2 of its kind on the Internet, is almost within the top 100K of all Internet sites that there are of any kind, both of which I am very proud of and is very highly regarded throughout the community.

Oh yea, you mentioned my pictures, I get compared to some very lovely GG’s all the time or that I am better looking than some visitors girlfriends, lol. Don’t know about any of that but that’s all high praise from a web site that started as therapy for myself, a depressed CD, just starting out who thought I had no life left and no where to go seven years ago and now in a completely different state of mind, transitioning to a woman, no longer married, totally happy and on the road to total success.

I would love to return to California and stay the rest of my life out there. That is all I dream about, besides being a woman. Yes, a chat would be nice too. Do look over my makeup section and let me know if there is anything I can help you with.

Yours truly,

Jenelle Rose  


From: Jennifer
Sent: Sunday, August 28, 2005 8:05 PM
Subject: RE: Check out the eCard I sent you from Yahoo! Greetings

Hi Jenelle,
Thank you for the beautiful and heart warming website. It is real and it is helpful. So helpful that I would like to contribute something, so please let me know your PO Box in Cinti. I have been a cros dresser for 30 years and I still cant get the thoughts out of my head to become a woman. I am like you in that I love women for what they are and what they feel. I only need to look more like one and your website will help me. I have never come out to anyone, only on internet. I dont have the nerve to do it. Anyways I wonce lived in Cinti for 10 years, and get back once or twice a
year. Maybe I coudl stop by a club you are at one nhight and talk, I am sure this has never been asked of you before LOL. And also maybe meet your friends. I have only talked to one transgendered personin my life.

SO anyways I have no pictures of my 6'3 body which is overweight. I am trying to lose so I can fit in that next lower dress size and get my feet into those pumps. I only have a picture of me as (boy) if you would like to see it fine, but I wish I had another enfemme.

Thanks for what you do.
Jenny

UH , what did I ask YOu ? Check y our snail mail, Nicole


Jenny,
Thank you for the card and the nice gesture. Actually, I don't get asked that often or at least not often anymore like I used to. I am flattered you ask. I am out and living as a woman 24/7, live with a woman and she does
everything and goes everywhere I go, if you don't mind. It would still be a hoot. You could come here, dress, even have some dinner together with us or we could out and eat and I could help with your make up and we could
go out and mix it up and have some big fun. We don't just limit ourselves to straight places, though if you'd rather, we could stay with the TG-friendly night spots, that's totally up to you.

 

All places in Cincinnati are accepting of Transgender's. You will get mam'd wherever you go and they will treat you like the lady you are, no need to worry about anyone hassling you. In the day you might get some cat calls by some teenage boys in a mall but even genetic girls get that! I did a long time ago but not anymore-maybe it was just THAT group of boys, who knows...?


If you went to make a donation to me (is what you meant?), I am surprised you didn't see the donate button on the web site in a few locations/pages, like at the top of the front page. I accept check and credit cards through PayPal.
Below is my address and phone number, if you'd rather use mail, also available if you look for it through the web site ("Inside Guide" page). I get cards, letters and phone calls sometimes....


Take care and let me know when ya wanna make things happen!
Would love to talk. BTW, I am very womanly-soft, female-oriented, all the things you'd a expect a woman to be. It's amazing, I never get over it, the changes externally that are catching up to the inside I have felt for so long and it makes me try ever harder to be that much more a woman. 

 

As to any gifts or doing a web site for your law firm, I would be most appreciative of either! A couple of those web sites have my rates. In the case of a business, it would be $250 for 10 hours worth of design work, for additional maintenance fees, if you needed me to continue to do that, which of course I would be happy to do, it would be at a rate of $10/hr. The sites I directed you too were all my personal sites. Business sites are done with business in mind.
I like letters like yours.
Thanks!


Jenelle Rose  
 


From: Ludwig
Sent: Sunday, August 28, 2005 4:34 AM
Subject: your pics

 Hi from germany

 Sorry for my bad English

i saw your Webpage and iwas impressed, very nice pics.

Wish i can meet a woman like you. 

Gretting and hugs from Germany: Loui

Hi Loui,

Your English actually is pretty good, at least in what you wrote here. Thank you for your praise; I am glad you like what you saw and were impressed. There is so much more I would like to add and I have many ideas for a refresh but not enough time prevents me sometimes doing things like that. I do what I can when I can do them.

I am getting impressed with the pictures, lol. I know where I came from and see the changes and am in awe at how far I’ve come in a year and wonder where I will be in another year. I can’t wait! Just kind of kidding with you….

Have a great day, and keep visiting!

Yours truly,

Jenelle Rose  
 


From: he she
Sent: Monday, August 29, 2005 2:12 AM
Subject: get a friend

Dear friend ,

I saw your picture( overall web pages) , you are very very attractore. I can not muffle from your picture, you are very cute and very pretty!!!!!!!!!!!! , your picture really get spirit very new me!!!, yor picture are in  my  PC desktop, but myself doing transvestite almostly  12 yeld!!! But I am a younger in 25 age!!! I kiss you by thousand congratulations !!! and almost you had big breast and long leg ( like really myself big breast and long leg, but I probably don not really your breast  , oook!!)

You are very beautifulgirl and very cute in your pictures .

I will ask from you , might implying disrespect !! Excuse me  from by a lady this clearly call!!!

1- do dissevere from family , friends ??

2- do not many problem  you in finding new job???

3-will trangended you really(M2F)!!! or only transvestite!!!

4-do you oral or anal sexy ?( active or passive by  man or woman or in other word, you are giver or getter any thing!!!!

if answer is true , please accessibly your picture or your film send by  mye-mail he_shexxx. (almost they were naked) CUL18er!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you very very much!!!!

Hello,

Thanks for your note and compliments. On your desktop as wallpaper, eh? Wow, a celebrity-almost.

To answer your questions in the order you ask them, 1.) My two brothers do not want to see me, my ex-wife and I still have a great friendship, my two daughters are reasonably close but they do not live with me, though I invite them to and invite them for sleepovers, etc. and they do not want their friends to know or see me because of my appearance and their fears of what the friends may think, though I suspect a few already know. 2.) Employers usually are impressed by my resume by phone and on paper but I have never been hired after a person to person interview, however I have been hired 100% of the time in phone interviews, gone to work and always get called back for additional assignments, apparently after proving my skills on the job and the TS issues seemingly going away. I believe employers are basically afraid of the ancillary issues; how the other employees may handle it, the bathroom issue, things of that nature but once I have been inside the company culture and they see there are no issues in any area to be concerned about, I am brought back in for additional assignments. (I am a PC Tech).

3.) I am a MtF TS, Pre-op, currently looking for a surgeon to do the surgery and have narrowed it down to three who I would like to visit with in person. 4.) I do not answer questions pertaining to a personal nature but I will tell you that I am a lesbian. 5.) Not a number but a request you make. I do not send pictures out to anyone. I do not even have any such pictures of which you seek.

Jenelle Rose  
 


From: Ready
Sent: Monday, August 29, 2005 3:56 AM
Subject: hi

hi

i just wanted to say that you are SOOOOOO BEAUTIFUL!!! you're like a Goddess

i was literally on my knees while checkin out you're pics. i hope i'm not

being too straight forward i don't mean to i just like telling the truth and

the truth is, YOU'RE A BEAUTIFUL GODDESS!!!

anyways please do e mail me back when you get the chance i would love to

hear from you.

 

Dear Ready,

It was a pleasure getting your email.

Who would like getting a note such as that? A goddess, eh? I went out as a Goddess for Halloween. I guess you really ate up those pictures, so to speak. The pictures are getting better as my features are improving day by day and I am glad fans like you are noticing. I won't et you down. I will keep on posting and keep the web site up and pictures will continue to play a part as I evolve in full and complete womanhood and I blossom.

You keep coming back and I will keep rewarding you.

Kisses,

Jenelle Rose  
 


From: Terry
Sent: Tuesday, August 30, 2005 8:18 PM
Subject: Introduction

Hi Janelle, 

Came across your very extensive website and had to tell you I was very impressed. I am a transgendered artist and musician and felt a quick bond with you. I am on hormones but rarely get the time to go to the city en femme. I live in a small redneck mountain community which is not the best place to be out as a crossdresser. My family and a few close friends know. Sadly my band mates don't, well yet anyway.  We currently have a 80 song play list, from Beatles and Stones, to Coldplay and Counting Crows. We also play 10 originals 4 of which are mine. 

Very nice blues band you've got there and excellent drumming. Sure wished we lived closer together. I play guitar and sing and would love jamming or recording sometime. Sadly living me in California and you in Ohio kind of wreck that idea. 

Anyway you look and seem like a very lovely person. The kind I would like to get to know as a friend. I imagine your friend list is pretty big already but if you have room for another long distance one I hope you'll consider me.

I'll be disappointed if your don't but can understand. Just thought I'd take the chance because I don't often come across other transgendered people who share similar interests.

Here's a simple profile of me I put on Yahoo.

http://profiles.yahoo.com/ter_reign

I also have a professional graphics site under my male name. Just so you know I am not fully out yet but you seem like a fairly honest and good soul I can trust so I'm going to take a risk and share that link as well. xxxx

Kindest regards,

Tara / Terry

Tara,

I know, at least I think I know the feeling you feel hon. To play and hang with people and have a secret you cannot share. It is hard. It is very hard.

Your art is very impressive work. A bit bizarre in some cases but mostly quite good. You are probably a very good writer and musician as well. I like creative types and would love to live in California. Any way to make that happen for me?

It’s too bad that you live is an area that makes it hard for you not to be able to live enfemme. Makes me feel a bit luckier but also wonder a few things….wouldn’t derail me from my transition however, nothing would.

Glad you like my chops and the blues but I can any style including the music you chose for your band, let’s jam!

Jenelle Rose  
 


From: TBULL
Sent: Saturday, September 03, 2005 5:24 AM
Subject: register
 

My name is Jamie Lee, Ts/Tg married to a Goddess for over 30 years.  Just learned about this site.  It is wonderful! 

God Bless Divine Femininity 

Jamie

 

Hell yea!

Lucky you!

…and thanks bunches! Keep coming back now, ya hear?

Jenelle Rose  


From: smilefrm
Sent: Tuesday, September 06, 2005 2:19 PM
Subject: your site

Nice slip. Wish I were there

Well come on,….just kidding.

Thank you. I've got new ones you might see that are even better one day If I take pictures of those too ….we'll see.

Jenelle Rose  


From: pooya
Sent: Wednesday, September 07, 2005 11:15 AM
Subject: alireza

hi

how r u?

i want a number of your sexi pictures .

thank

At this time I do not take requests however, there will be down the road, packages of high-resolution pictures made available, if interested. These will be non-nude pictures, either the same as on the site now or similar just in a very much larger format, not reduced in anyway for the web for greater detail. Details to come later.

 Jenelle Rose  


From: pat stamer
Sent: Thursday, September 15, 2005 8:20 AM
Subject:

Hi Jenelle,

                   I enjoyed looking at your pics, but only wish you would show more of the real you!  Do you have any nudes available?  You are very attractive!!!   Pat 

Due to PayPal restrictions, I am not allowed to show any nudity-they have made me remove many shots of me showing just areola through a bra and anyway my site attracts a global audience that includes many women (SO support, makeup technique, etc) as well as males who do not wish to see nudity.

I consider myself a classy girl but there is yet another reason. I am out living as a woman 24/7 with a professional career. I wouldn’t want anything of the sort to come back to haunt me ever, so I hope you understand and I have many reasons as well, besides, many feel that a little mystery is far sexier that complete nudity anyway, including myself.

Thank you for your visit and the compliments!

Enjoy!

Jenelle Rose  


From: s
Sent: Friday, September 16, 2005 2:51 AM
Subject: i'm a north east ohio tg

hello, 

i'm trapped in a female body and live in an environment where i have to hid it all the time, i can't find anyone to talk to about it, i saw your e-mail address on the internet and I would love to be friends and network with other tg, but i can't find anyone in this state :(

nicole

Nicole,

I feel for you, really I do. While we are polar opposites of each other I feel your pain as I have much the same feelings. While always on my mind and emotionally painful, tides come and go as to how deep it comes on and it was just this week that it really hit home while an image flashed on screen while watching TV with both a female and a male at the same time, seeing the differences in structure (coupled with just being turned down -again-for multiple positions –this time- at Macy’s cosmetics just because I wasn’t born a female) and for the next few days I was on an emotional low. Could be hormones, or other things I realize but just the same, I know what it is like to have the feeling to just want the be born into this world again with a second chance of getting it right.

One thing I thought is that everyone’s life is not perfect and it could be significantly worse; no ones’ life is perfect. But still, I know how much it hurts.  

Feel free to email, call consider me a friend. I will always try and understand. I have written and read many articles on this subject, not that that makes me an expert or anything, just that I have a little knowledge and some background.

You say you found my email address, Have you seen my GLBT web site, linked below? I consider myself a lesbian and live with a girlfriend.

Do you wish to be referred to as a he or she? Let me know all the ways I can help.

Thanks for writing, good luck to you and hope to hear from you soon.

Jenelle Rose  


From: Isis Win TGirl
Sent: Friday, September 16, 2005 1:19 PM
Subject: Breast Form Repairs?

Dear Jenelle,

not only you're a foxy gurl, but very generous. With the exception of the broken seems, the bicycle's tire patch works. It is transparent/clear and soft. It is as well used to repair water mattresses. I friend of mine tried it and it worked like a charm. My manufacturer also recommends it (Lifeforms).
However, you're right! for the most part it is unnecessary to wear the expensive forms and your method works. I found it by myself through trial and error. Taping can be done w/o pain and results well but takes time to master the technique. However, in a nice/low dress who wants to see a little thingy crossing the breast? and adding the forms will make the whole thing TOO big!
Anyway's, I just wanted to get in touch with you!

Kisses, Isis VC420

Girls,

My two cents….

They can’t be fixed

I have tried many types of tape, glues, and other methods though the fix a flat idea is a novel one I hadn’t tried, lol.

What usually breaks them is sleeping in them or just too much pressure for the seams to take. Avoid spending to much money on them because they are not worth it (for us).

My best pair were the tear drops from Fredericks for $75. My replacements which were Amoena medical grades from Butterfly Image, for $350 obviously, way overpriced. I still have those but with my own natural 36 B’s, I haven’t needed them and so for the last few years they have been in storage.

 

My advice is to just get the $30 enhancers from any drug store or pay $25 on-line and use them with a padded pushup bra. You get the best cleavage, the most natural look and the best comments from everybody who will think you are on hormones! What more could you ask for with that price? All forms break, no matter what you pay for them.

 $30 is a CHEAP fix!

I have instructions on my web site for getting cleavage in great detail under the heading of “Dear Jenelle”

Till next time!

Jenelle Rose  

VC #280

 


From: x989@xxx.net
Sent: Monday, September 26, 2005 8:12 PM
Subject: Hi

Read your advice about tucking which I haven't had too bad a time doing. But here is the real problem, when a guy starts flirting and touching my penis gets hard. This is really embarrassing when I have on anything tight. You spoke about a gaff, what exactly is it and where do I find one? Is there any other device or solution for a penis that just won't stay put? 

Thanks, ---------- Glenna

 

Hi,

You can find gaffs at erotic stores as well as at stores that cater to theatrical costuming. You might also try just tighter fitting clothing such as bicycle shorts, a girdle, pantyhose, etc. and tucking yourself under. The choice is yours.

Take care,

Jenelle Rose


From: Pamela H
Sent: Wednesday, October 05, 2005 8:18 PM
Subject: RE: A treat for the senses

Hi there sweetie,

If you are celebrating your birthday on Sunday, yea baby, I'm there! I'd like some time just you, me, Sher and any other gals you'd like to invite for a gal's night/ slumber party (maybe you can do our makeup and I can take pictures?).
As for you being a woman, Jenelle, you know I felt you were a lady the first time I met you -- in fact you are more feminine than a lot of girls I know (a lot of young ladies want to be Tom Boys now - go figure!)...

As for the last surgery -- whoa, that is a little scary, isn't it? You would need a long recoup time, wouldn't you for that? Have you thought of when you are going to go through with it?

I have seen sex change documentaries on TV -- what is really interesting is a woman turning into the man she feels she is -- they have no problem looking totally male with hormones, but that last surgery is harder to create for obvious reasons.

So, what would you like for your birthday??

Love ya,


Pam (-;Surgery is not a scary thing for me. For a guy it would be but I don't consider myself a guy-anymore. It is just an end to one journey or a bridge and beginning to another --that I am looking forward to. I am not hurrying the process b/c I know I can't turn back and I want to make sure every step of the way.
Other than that, I am ready and looking forward to looking right "down there" and being/feeling complete. I am not scared. I only fear of losing feeling my sexual appetite, drying up, closing and all the work that it takes staying open and the little things-UTI, yeast, etc. but none of these things even are enough to derail me from what I am or what I must do to complete my self or make myself whole.

A FtM is much easier in execution except for the genital surgery. He can pass much easier, is accepted for the most part b/c the Testosterone can do so much of the work including the voice, hair, body, etc., whereas Estrogen only goes so far for the MtF Transsexual.
A MtF has to practice to make her voice go higher, work to get her body smaller (if she wants hips, a waist, etc-to get a "female form", one that has the appearance of hips and a waist and so on), go through expensive procedures to eliminate hair on the face, the genital area, reduce or eliminate the tell-tell Adam's Apple, not to mention facial feminization (nose, brow bone, cheek bones, jaw line, etc.) and then have the SRS, itself an almost $20k procedure. They still can't do anything about height, big hands or feet, broad shoulders or any thing of that sort.

A woman wanting to be "male" can do so in many smaller stages and be happy in our society.
A man wanting to be "female" has no such options. Not yet anyway. Currently he is labeled "gay". How about that girl?

She's "trendy".

Jenelle Rose


From: Guh@xxx.com
Sent: Friday, September 30, 2005 11:08 PM
Subject: Hello Jenelle

Jenelle: 

I have been following your growth and development for many years.  You might say, I have, at least to some small degree, tried to live altruistically through you much the way a mother does with her daughter.  I have watched you, heard your joy and your sadness.  I know how much you respect womanhood, and I know that you have struggled to get the women in your life to understand.  It's funny, my wife complained for many years that men need to be more like women.  Well, when I told her that a big part of me needed to be a woman all hell broke loose.  I guess I am fortunate that she is still here with me, although my femininity is an on-going issue, and I wouldn't bet that she stays through the end whatever that turns out to be.  I have two sons from a previous married, I am a widower, and I feel very protective toward them.  They both know that I am transgendered, but I doubt that either real knows what that means.  I'm not sure that I do..  Enough about me.

I am writing to say hello, and to let you know that I care about you, and that I would like to know how you are doing.  You have been so brave and so forthhcoming about your feelings, that you have inspired many other women to be themselves and to love themselves.  I hope you are doing well and that you are  happy. 

OBTW, I think you are very pretty.

Love, your sister, Louise Morgan

 

Hi Louise,

Thank you for writing, telling me a little bit about yourself. Don’t be afraid to say more, like how old your children are, etc.

Life does throw us some curve balls at times and it is how we handle those things that test us and makes us better people, makes us better understand and come closer in our relationships with others or in some cases tears them apart.

I wish the best for you and hope you continue to write, be a friend and manage your life with the best of care through the coming hard times you are sure to face and if there is ever anything I can do, a question I can answer, don’t hesitate to ask or write.

I sincerely appreciate hearing from you and want to thank you for a truly warm and moving letter that arrived just when I needed it. I was myself on a low eb due to many factors and your letter helped to lift me up. I want you to know that.

Thank you,

Jenelle Rose


From: bethieann@xxx.com 
Sent: Monday, October 17, 2005 12:40 AM
Subject: makeover

Hello, Is there a place or person in the Sacramento area that I can get a makeover ?   Ps I am a cross dresser Bethie**

Bethie,

Thanks for writing hon.

I reworded your question and went to Google. Try using something like this in the search bar:”Sacramento area beauty makeover”. Play with other combinations of words till something works or you find what you need.

Other options include any cosmetics counter at any department store especially at a slow time of the day when they don’t feel so much in a hurry and can take more time with you and most importantly, you may not feel as embarrassed by people walking around you. The reality is however, you will in all likelihood soon forget any of that and just start enjoying yourself and the experience, not to mention the great advice you will hopefully receive. Keep in mind, this is the time of the year they start to get busy and you may need to make an appointment but maybe not, try and see!

Try to find someone who has the makeup look you like, of the same age as you and who doesn’t brush you off, most will not but in some areas of the country, this may still happen. It is getting much better for us; I never have a problem and never did, in fact I have had the opposite-total support from everyone I have met. Everyone has been so kind, friendly and supportive; it has made being out and then transitioning especially easy. 

In a typical mall department store there are cluster’s of counters, so if you don’t like one, go to another but do not take advantage this. If you find good help and advice at one counter do not take up the time at another please. They do not make much money unless you buy something which brings up two points: don’t feel pressured to buy and not all of these counter people are very well trained or even very knowledgeable. It can vary a great deal from one person to the next.

Some of the better cosmetic lines, without getting too pricey are Estee Lauder, Prescriptives, Clinique, Lancôme, MAC and so on. Most of these share the same parent company. Channel, is another very fine product while others such as Benefit and others fill out specialty areas. There are stores such as Sephora that offer a broad selection but they don’t offer the individual help and advice you are seeking. Keep in mind these brands are expensive; expect to spend anywhere from $100 to $300, even $400 on cosmetics (Power brushes alone are $35) but if you just take the advice and buy most of the products, which for the most part are the same at a drug store, for example Lancôme and L’Oreal are the same company. A tube of lipstick can be $9 to $16 vs. $3 at a drug store.

Your makeover is going to be about $100 and will last just one day. You will get the same effect for free by having someone show you at a cosmetic counter do you and show you how to do it and you can some brushes or other product using your money more wisely, better still, buy through me and I can offer you expert advice all along the way, as well as saving you money with my discounts as a professional makeup artist. I don’t mean to be selling myself here, just want to offer this as an option and let you know I can help you in this area as well.

One other option and I’m sure options are out there as well is to go to TG conferences that always feature various entertainment, education, forums and makeovers for attendees.

You should start by looking over my web site thoroughly before you go anywhere. It is very comprehensive and most everything you need to know except hands-on or hand-holding which I do locally in Cincinnati is included on it. I do males and females for all sorts of reasons, you would be quite surprised. My last request was from a female who wanted me to make her eyes droopy! I get emails from and do work for theater groups, musicians, brides and of course cross dressers plus I keep myself busy in the film business.

I have branched out these past two years into hair and special effects more and more.

Many of the things mentioned above are written about on the web site in either the Rants or Raves article I wrote (http://www.jenellerose.com/docs/rantsandraves.html)

or the Makeup section of the web site. There are other areas to that may assist you: Help, Product Reviews, Emails 2005, Dear Jenelle, Favorite links and so much more! All of this you should be able to find from the front page buttons.

Good luck to you my friend and happy hunting!

 Jenelle Rose


From: Joshua
Sent: Saturday, October 29, 2005 10:24 PM
Subject: Legendary_magicman@yahoo.com

hi im thining a bout haveing a sex change how much did yours cost e mail me thanks

Hi

I didn’t have a sex change, otherwise known as SRS, for Surgical Reassignment Surgery or GRS, for Gender Reassignment Surgery. At some point that is the plan but right now, I am still in transition.

Sounds like a simple question but I have a long answer for you. I hope it gives you a complete answer. The surgery is very expensive and you have your choice of having it in the USA, Canada, Thailand, etc. You do not say where you live or give many details.

There is a long road ahead before you actually have the procedure done and of course it is not reversible. You should also know that the suicide rate is quite high. Do not think that a sex change in anyway solves any problems that you may be having. It is a legitimate answer to those who have felt all their lives that they were born in the wrong body and this is they only way that they can correct it but for others gender is not between the legs at all. It is much more than that and if you are in any way running away form problems in your life, a sex change certainly will not solve any of those issues.

The Dr. Benjamin Standards of Care that should be followed to the letter, getting therapy, following the doctors’ care for the use of hormones and getting blood tests, staying monitored and going slow. Don’t be in a rush to get to the end game, it just may kill thru. There are many ways that you can wind up dead, don’t let this happen to you.

You will also experience many ups and downs so get yourself a network of people you can rely upon and join a TG support group, even if it means driving some distance out of your area or start one yourself and just start meeting at a church or someone’s home. You will be surprised how many like to dress, the Internet has taught us that. Find them; go to gay bars in the area, if you have too, they are all around you. It is said 7% of the male population dresses in women’s clothes but don’t forget to include the FtM. I have more info within my site on starting these clubs, if interested.

The waiting list to have surgery is about a year. Check out my links and TS-specific pages for several sites and doctors who perform these surgeries. They require a down payment, usually around $500. There are many types of surgeries but I assume you are talking about the full operation in which case the cost is about $12-$17.000. currently but this rises yearly. Check into who have done a number of these and look at the post-op pictures, as well as do some background checking. This is major surgery. There are many potential dangers and problems as well as good possibilities that can come out of it.

Look into the possible side effects and make sure you are willing to accept these such as loss of sexual drive or appetite, loss of sensation or orgasm, Urinary Track and yeast infections, damage to the intestinal walls, closing up of the new vagina, the need for lubricant during sexual intercourse, etc.

There are these and much more to consider and the procedures don’t stop there. Most Transsexuals have opted before hand or continue to have afterward other work done including facial feminization, Electrolysis, breast augmentation, etc. These can add up to well over $50,000.00 easily.

Most have been on hormones and had Electrolysis years before having SRS. In fact, it is a requirement and is neither are cheap! They alone account for about $14,000. each totaled over their lifetime, if not much more

It’s not easy changing genders and certainly not inexpensive! But for some of us, money is not an option, it’s what we have to do and there are really no choices.

Best wishes,


From: Wayne
Sent: Monday, October 31, 2005 1:34 PM
Subject: friendship

Hello,

 

My name is Natasha and I am a transgendered person seeking information on personal stories on people that have gone through SRS MTF.   I would like to know how you are doing physically and emotionlly.  I am almost 40 years old and I would like to go through the surgery someday soon.  I would also like to know HRT does for you.

I am also looking for some friends to talk with from time to time.  I am also married and I have no support from her so I need to find some support out here on the world wide web. 

So if you can help in anyway.  That will mean a great deal to me

Thank you
Natasha

Natasha,

Hey girl,

I would enjoy hearing from you from time to time and being a friend, helping you in anyway I can. I generally keep extremely busy but do try to respond, not always successfully, but very quickly to all my emails.

There are many ups and downs, especially at the beginning, getting used to the very powerful effects of Estrogen. Women have their whole lives to adapt yet still have problems with it, especially at pregnancy and after child birth and during PMS. We are thrown into this world rather abruptly and must deal from the get-go and make no mistake, it does get scary. You will cry and the hormones will surge but you will adapt as women do. Please do follow all the Standards of Care and stay under a doctor’s care and do not try to go too fast. Have a network of friends and a safety net to fall into if the need should arise, as it will.

I have never been happier but I have also been very down though never more down than before I made the decision to be full time. It can be very hard at times but the comfort of having a partner can make all the difference.

I never see other TS’s out and about-never. I am the only one I ever see, no matter where I go (unless it’s to a club, even then they are scarce) and this is in Cincinnati, OH. Are you ready for such an experience?

I am certainly in transition. I think of this every day, several times I am thinking I am in a change in spirit, the physical, mental, emotional; how I see myself changing inside and outside. I think of myself changing over from one gender to the other. Everything I am is sometimes put in doubt. I question myself to make sure of who I am, to make sure I don’t wind up dead at the end of the rainbow or another statistic.

I am a very happy person; very optimistic. I am very balanced, who plays devils advocate, a Libra trait. I research the hell out of things and make sure of all my steps all along the way are taken care of.

There always seems to a bridge or gap in the middle I seem to be crossing. I have to think about my voice, for instance but I am getting ever closer to always looking and feeling fem. The hormones and time are doing wonders on not just my hair but on my whole self. It is unbelievable how far I have come in the last year and how far the year before that!

Where will I be in the next year or the year after? My breasts have grown to a full B, a cup size since February, while not bad and I am grateful, I am hoping they will continue to grow to a full C cup. While I can live with the B size and feel blessed knowing others haven’t been so lucky and that mine mimic a women’s to the last detail and are still growing and can vouch for the wonders of a pushup bra, I still wish for more growth, but will not have surgery to augment them even if I like the look of the cleavage of those C’s.

I can steer you to my web site and its vast resources of 700 internal pages and 350 links below, JenelleRose.com for more about this and other issues you bring but I also have another letter I replied to another just this morning I will include here to close out.

(Letter to Joshua above follows)

Good luck to and Happy Halloween!

Jenelle Rose



From: Joe
Sent: Sunday, November 13, 2005 11:59 PM

hi you are sweet

Hi Joe,
Thank you very much. Nice of you to write to say that.


Jenelle Rose


From: Tmac@xxx.com
Sent: Sunday, November 20, 2005 3:35 AM

you ain't Stacy Keibler.........

Hi

No, but I appreciate the comparison very much! She does looks beautiful and I can see the similarities.

 

Thanks,

From: J F
Sent: Monday, November 21, 2005 11:17 AM
Subject: Coming out to myself and scared

Janelle,

I hope you can help me and be a source of support and advice.  I am working on my true self, accepting who I really am in therapy and my therapist gave me your web site to begin looking for and finding answers.  I am a 45 year old cross dresser who is happily married with one child.  (Yes my wife knows about this part of me but doesn't accept my feminine self.)
I guess my question (at least one of them. lol) is why am I feeling a stronger and stronger compulsion to dress.... only in private.... and feel very sad when I have to stop. I also feel guilty but that's a whole other issue.
I hope you can help me work through this.
Scared and confused,
Jenn
P.S. I joined your yahoo group but don't feel comfortable posting there at this time.

Jenn,

Your story hon is very similar to others if you don’t already know.

Read the Bios of web sites like mine and you will see this is true. Some cross-dressers start dressing at puberty, others are late bloomers Is it a midlife crisis, marital problems, sexual frustration or just an awakening of what has lay dormant for many years?

In my case, I had thought any of these were possible, never even remembering until a year after the dressing began that I had dressed when young in my mothers things and then began remembering even more details about her clothes and others things I had admired. Never having a sister but wishing for one so badly I found girls in the neighborhood who would let me play dress up with them. I forgot all of this from my psyche until about your age but just like you, the urge to dress got to be so compelling, so over-powering, it consumed me.

It started out being just a day a month thing, then a couple times a month, then eventually a nightly ritual. I talked my wife into letting me sleep with a bra and slip on-she said as long as the boobs didn’t touch her and so on. I would wear my bra under a loose, baggy sweat shirt all day, even to the kids basketball games and other activities. I had to have that feeling of restriction on my body. I craved it. I got to the point where I wore panties every day never imaging when I started that would ever happen.

Guilt had no power over the urge. The compulsion was just too over-powering. I couldn’t stop it, no one could. My wife gave me an ultimatum the morning after my first night out dressed. Even with the literature I brought home and tried to read to her (she wasn’t interested) and the denials that I wasn’t gay or that I wasn’t turning into a woman-one out of two was right.

I am not gay but I am on track to have surgery, we have even talked it about it recently and I am a woman full-time now and have been for three years, since March of 2003.

I have two daughters, one 16, the other 18. Most everything I told you and more is in my diary/BIO. Read it and check out the help section of the web site. There is a ton on the site to help and your wife. I started the site at the end of 1998, the beginning of the end of my relationship with my wife. It was both for her and others like her and you but most importantly my therapy for the pain I was in at the time to help me get thru the day of suffering I was in. It isn’t easy.

You need a network of people you can count on. Rely on your therapist and thank them for pointing them to me. If I may say, I do have one of the best sites out there. Sadly my wife never did look at the site in a mending way, she only used it against me in the first divorce to keep me from my kids who were 9 and 11 at the time I started dressing.

I have to go now, holidays and all. But write back, even call if you’d like. Would be glad being a friend or help you any way I can.

 Jenelle Rose  


From: roon gool
Sent: Tuesday, November 22, 2005 7:55 AM
Subject: hi

hi you are fantastic you lovly   you can send me your new footo you have duahter  its no problem for change sex and your family   you take harmone    are you transexual  are you like sex withe shemale

Hi

Don’t quite understand what you are asking here but I will take a try at answering you.

First, thank you very much for the compliment!

I do not send photos to individuals; you will have to make do with the 600+ that are on the web site already. I am sure it is even well above that number by now. Just yesterday I uploaded 37 new ones. If you are asking if I have something in a more risqué type of photo, the answer is no.

I have taken some pictures, for my eyes only, to chronicle my breast development but that is about it.

The closest I have ever gotten to a sexy picture otherwise is rather tame in comparison to the “Shemale” type of thing you bring up.

When in a playful mood, I took some “Boudoir” photos in 1998 but those have been on the site since then but there is nothing more provocative in those than me in a slip or bra with a “come here” type of look.

I consider myself a female, a woman thru and thru, not a shemale of any sort, tough I have asked to link to or be a part of those sites and every time refused. You will never see any sort of nudity from me. I am a classy woman who is a professional in the computer business and have additional entrepreneur businesses on the side. I will never jeopardize any of that for some thrill seeking guy who comes along nor do I engage in any kind of sex talk, chat or IM.

I will be having GRS when I settle on a doctor and can arrange financing. It is expensive surgery and I have a lot of things to look into first. I would like to visit with each doctor and make sure I get good results. My kids, both girls in their mid to late teens are fine are with things (me). We talk and we visit all the time. It hasn’t been a road of roses with the divorce and other things but it really hasn’t been that bad either.

I do take hormones. I have made this information quite clear. It’s on the front/main page of my web site but I do plan to have a new section on the site called “Transition Diary”, where I will explain everything in detail and where it will stay. It will be in chronological order, complete with cross references, links to information, pictures and so on. For instance, in the last week I just started taking progesterone at 10mg/day that will make drastic changes to my body and thinking and I will have much to say about it and I will give lots of other updated information in this new area as well.

Thank you very much for writing I hope I was able to answer your questions completely!

  Jenelle Rose  


There are many emails I get that never appear here in the email section of the web site in other years and even 2005 isn't complete or totally represented here, just because I never took the time before. I see now that they can be healthy as well as helpful to many. I will henceforth, make the effort to share them with you, who visit the site and make as many available as possible.

In some cases, I will take and move certain emails to other sections, if I feel they belong there such as "Dear Jenelle" or the section on Transsexuals, Hormones or other areas appropriate to their content or subject matter where they can do the most good and more people looking for certain information will see them.

 

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