Confused about my sexuality

Hello everyone,

I am at a point in my life, where I am very confused about my sexuality. I'm not talking about Rachel. I know I'm Transgendered and I am very proud of it. I'm talking about my sexual preference. When I was in my teens, I liked girls. I experimented with boys, but I always knew I wanted to spend my life with a woman. I married very young. I was nineteen years old. That marriage didn't work out. She never knew about Rachel. I thought that was the reason it didn't work out. So, I told the next woman in my life all about Rachel, before we got married. She accepted it and I was the happiest person in the world. I believe that was the happiest time in my life. But, she began to hate Rachel. She would get defensive and jealous when we would go out because men would pay attention to me and not her. So, this marriage failed also. She didn't want to be married to a Transgendered person anymore. I always considered myself bisexual. However, I find myself running from women since my last marriage. I still see my life with a woman, but I can't imagine myself having sexual relations with a woman. All I think is about having sex with a guy. But, I can't see myself living together with a man. Does that make any sense. I'm so confused. I know I'm not heterosexual, but I don't know what I want. I don't want to confuse my daughter just to experiment and try to find out what I want. If I thought I really wanted a relationship with a man, I would find a way. But, I'm not sure if I'm just reacting from the pain my ex-wife caused me. 

If this makes any sense to any of you girls, and you have gone through this and know the answer. Please let me know. I don't have anyone else to talk to. 

Love,

Rachel