Why . . .

From: <alicialala@sissify.com>

To: jenelle@jenellerose.com

Why . . .

Date: Mon, 28 May 2001

Why am I emailing you this morning? Because we share what is probably the most mysterious, awesome, yet delightful secret--some of us for years and years!  If you’re like me--and I have every reason to believe you are--you knew very early on that you were different, but different in a luscious, unimaginably delicious way--you knew that you were born as a physical male, but that a strong and irresistible part of your beingness was really and truly feminine, and that this treasured blessing would be your companion and your “true” self for all time to come. I set out years and years ago to learn why this was so, why I was given this great gift of femininity, and now believe I’ve found the answer. I will share it with you, freely because I’m sure it has often been in your mind . . . and will make it very clear to you that it’s OK--and that you, too, are OK. In every way! Feel free to pass this on to your sisters, and to respond to me in any way you may wish. I give you my love and my most sincere wishes for your future happiness as a Transgendered human being!                                                                                                        Alicialala@sissify.com

WHY? 

An answer to the question that’s defined your life as a Transgendered human being!

        When you began your lives on earth as a human being, you lived thru a long series of incarnations in male and then in female bodies. Eventually the pattern switched back and forth more frequently. 

As you gained insight and mastered the lessons of "female-ness" or "male-ness," or "human-ness as male or female," the cycle began to compress and you began the long journey toward androgynous human beingness.

       Advanced souls entering the human evolutionary scheme follow the sequence more frequently, sometimes taking an alternating pattern of male, female, male, female as the soul advances within time. Over a long series of life experiences, you learn to balance the opposite duality and become comfortable in either framework of expression. You are a truly integrated human personality.

       Transgendered men and women experience a transitional condition as their souls anticipate change genders.  A personality enters earth life with a strong subconscious memory of an earlier experience in its opposite gender, or begins to assume the qualities of the opposite gender in preparation if the change is to come in an immediate future life. As you approach a change in gender, your personality begins to feel the effects of the incoming forces predominating in the next incarnation, and the forces of the present gender begin to play out. You “feel” more and more female, if you are a biological male, or more and more “male” if you are a biological female.

            A person living as a biological male, who will appear in the next incarnation as a female, senses the incoming forces as they grow ever more powerful. If he’s not attuned to them and capable of integrating them with his existing force field, he may find that they create confusion of gender identity and adjustment. If he does integrate the forces successfully, he may live out that life as a biological male that understands and successfully accommodates the fact that he has both male and female elements in his psyche, or he may assume the characteristics of the female sex if those forces are particularly compelling.

            If the forces are overwhelming, as indeed they can be, and the personality is unable to wait for the female life that is inevitably to come, he may wish to bring on an immediate change by undergoing an actual physical change in his body through surgery while still in the present incarnation as a biological male. “Short circuit” the process, as it were.

            The pressures of this can become enormous, and only a man who has experienced the intensity of the feeling of yearning to be female while in a male body can possibly testify to the pain and the passion of this condition or the sheer joy and pleasure of taking on the outward appearance of womanhood by dressing in pretty clothes, wearing makeup, associating with his sisters and seeking the company of women, sometimes even living life as a woman. .

            Only by assuming a feminine identity by taking on a female name and a feminine appearance, appearing in public as a woman and even living as a woman, can this man relieve the unrelenting pressures of what he feels.

            He is transformed, and he adores his “new” gender, often gained only after the most painful and traumatic life experiences, and involving the loss of friends and wives, the loss of reputation within the straight world, the outright rejection by beloved relatives and the scorn of macho males. No wonder he exalts when he finds and befriends others who share his feelings and experiences!

       The same dilemma appears when a soul comes into earth life as a female, but with an immediate past life experience as a strong male. Subconscious influences feed through time, from the past and from the future, and the soul as a biological woman may live a life as a strong male might feel a woman should live. The awkwardness of this means that the person may feel completely out of tune with the new life she is now living as a member of the gender opposite from what’s she’s previously experienced as a male. This is often the case with dominant females, as it is with submissive and feminine males.

       Is there no wonder, then, why there's often a subconscious yearning to return to the former state, particularly if the past life was a satisfying one?  Dissatisfaction with the so-called "male" responsibilities, the "male" way of life, or the "female" can create enormous inner pressures to take up life in the opposite framework.

       The eventual result of the evolution of humankind in a dual sex framework lies some several thousands of years in the future. At that time, there will emerge in the race the first truly androgynous human types. In the far distant future, humanity will have evolved beyond the need for physical reproduction, and sex will no longer be sex, as we know it today.